o, what a day for me... wanted to reached school on time.. and yet took a cab down... after wasting all those money, i reached the room on time... way before to be exact... but didnt expect that the lecturer wasnt there after 15 mins, so people out there started rumouring it seems like there is no class and someone even said fuck my life if there isnt. and seriously, fuck MY life, i waited 30 mins... and left after everyone started leaving. so i had basically another 2h and 30 mins of break..going canteen when i dun have much money left is an idiot, so i went to the library to use computer instead.. damn that com, i cant even access to barn buddy, whihc was a crap.. for i do not know the reason why i cant access thru home. subsequently i just shut that damn facebook and watched animation.. so after i sat outside the studio while waiting for the time to past, that was like about 1120 which is 40 mins more.. alright so its 12 and damn, had to take the PM temperature when previously was the AM one.. so went over to took wiht some other mates.. but damn its still the AM one -.- when its like past 12 already.. argh whatever, they dun even care u took temperature anot, why am i following rules all along -.- alright so its the subject brief, i just sat there felt like sleeping, okay so its group work of 3 for assignment 1 and individual for assignment 2... and i seriously think assignment 1 is fucking lots of work, well whatever.. so i was pair off with someone... i duno why was i so positive this time- just hope there's isnt any trouble, and dun scare me off early in the morning and another month will just past. alright so i got this 6 field trips within 2 weeks... and damn field trip again, when my phone crash the other time, i dun even have a good camera phone, neither do i have a digital cam... so the usual rejected due to some inferior bastard i bet.. well whatever, since i am not even able to meddle with the stuffs anymore, well good defence u play...good defence..~ i do have alternatives but... i might not used to it? agrh, again whatever... so class was dismissed kinda early, they were suppose to head to cafe cartel for lunch... but i didnt have much money in the first place, and damn i had to share a cab today due to " i doesnt want to be late for sch for the first day " and damn again, its not even the first day -.- and damn it again, rach ask me to go and eat free bread, wtf? well in the end, i didnt..sorry to reject the offer everyone.. it was kinda lonely road while walking home...because its cold..like suddently, the cold air keep blowing my head and causign the hair in the mess, well its okay since my life is already in the mess this morning... it took me more than 30 mins to reach home i guessed, was given a piece of bread from mui and saw my mother on the way back.. what does this tells? " if you got trouble, go to these 2 person ? " -.- wtf , seriously give me a break! so after i reached home, and after i ate that bread.. i went to sleep, and seriously slept for 6hours straight. and in between i even had crap dreams, dreams like ... agrh something i didnt like la.. alright so i woke up at 10 and from then till now, i have been using com...what a day can past like that right? and seriously u inferior bastard please please please, u wanted to live in isolation, dun drag me along wiht you for you fuckin subtracting my world, you will fucking get your retribution back..
and if i could tell everything to u easily... i would have asked why did u left and come back now... although u could have just not accept that damn request.. and i am not using that as a stalking device... for i guess i just been missing you.

10:31 PM
it continues to stain, why?.

oyasuminasai =/

4:33 AM
it continues to stain, why?.

watched i love you, man on thursday.. great show. maybe how man are created are from what woman wanted? but also how woman created are what man wanted but they normally are clear how they wanna become and became but in the end, they gave in and be fierce and pretend nothing had happen.
so after all, i was just a joke to you ? when i thought i am old enough to consider how serious i should be. maybe after all, the same species will only understand its own gang.
seriously if we were to print money, and u were to play guitar i were to play bass, then we are exactly like in the movie but life is not like movie, but we create our own movie.. okay all the buts, will never happen
and if you try, its like an intention of giving up...you must do it, and so you will accomplish it.
i seriously dun care what my sis will become in the future, neither do i know what i will become too also i wouldnt know what my wife would look like, i am kinda ignoring all these already.. maybe single life would give u this carefree life to love everyone and not worrying about the outcome.
the sweat that contain alcohol, sometimes its good to feel like u are flying, the carefree feeling... so waht if your wallpaper still got that jerk face, or u still interested in that bloody a**hole. its not important to me.
should i invest on digital camera or some mp3 like ipod touch? i seriously need music i think? since mio charchter soundtrack become so hot now.. and toradora opening keep me high and in love. just if i were to print money...
and go ahead and hate boys, tho i am not a boy, but i know where i stand in your world. you used to have this url, but i have lost yours...and recently we just came back in contact, which i do not know, are u still as active as perviously. u had new friends, new life... tho i sitll miss your face, your voice, your words..your everything, i would still praise you as my number one pretty girl list. if you could at least see this, hahas you would want to delete me immediately, tho i still couldnt get it why u left previously...because your newly attached boyfriend, wanted u to be "male-free" =/
girls out there, dun ever ever believe the word of a man, unless they ask you to marry them and really flash a damn big diamond ring, and u felt his sincerity, only then u can only trust them...being in a relationship, they will take care of you forever, love you forever they all bowlshit.. even fairytale doesnt have them.
get lost la this corrupted world, i wonder when i get married, how many young ladies are victim of the jerk, hope my wife is innocent. me too here too.
damn it..
it's me, call me.

4:09 AM
it continues to stain, why?.

it's been very long, the duration was so long that i couldnt remember the departure of the image, but it arrive back which make me happy as usual but yet sour and bitter at the same time. the only thing i couldnt comprehen was, why do you left without bidding goodbye and now back as if nothing happen?

i had this apel2 survey suddently to complete asap, the cart rental for mic buisness, the CDS and elective subject selection on friday, and my phone suddently break down which i am already uncontactable for 4 days. although i feel the peace, but at the same time i feel loneliness. go out, eat , play all need money... if i got all the money in the world, u think i need to worry so much about what i am spending?

my sis said she want to retake Os, redo diploma and take a degree... i say for waht, when u are 2x old already... by the time she finish education shes already 3x nearly 40s she said its for her career and added interior designer sucks. =/

although i dun think i will become a designer after i graduate, but people told me then why bother waste time to clear this diploma right? my alternative career would be a pilot, since i have perfect eyesight which was a great advantage, plus u are the air stewardess.. isnt that cool? or maybe i will really being an interior designer.

seriously i wish my sixth sense had not witness anything, it always doesnt feel right after knowing so why bother to know right? damn it, but someone told me not to hate it because she likes it.

well at least i got the connection, the bird and 3 of my eye candy 1 from sch 1 outside the world and 1 from the virtual world.

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11:57 PM
it continues to stain, why?.