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[x] SEVENTEEN
[x] VIRGO
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[x] PERFECTIONIST

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[x] [<3(GIRLFRIEND <3 ME)]
[x] ???FAMILY (=
[x] DESIGN-ED TOPS & BOTTOMS
[x] ANTI-REVERSE PSYCHO

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[x] CHEMISTRY
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[x] HER
[x] LIARS
[x] MATHEMATICS
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[x] CHOCOLATES
[x] TEACHERS
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* ANGIE
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* ASHIKIN
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* AZMI
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Saturday, March 28, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

its holiday, 3 weeks long enough for a rest but not long for holiday.. got to make full use of it, doubt can get a job... so must come out with saving money campaign, erms shopping for stuffs and enjoyment for relaxation..
had sushi buffet earlier on, was shiok with the sashimi, sushi and the terppanyaki hot tea and chio bu... eye candy was good that, her "company" didnt kept me lonely yet productive.. maybe she could be the drive for me to go sch everyday, just to see her..and do work also la =x and i love her dress..wish to witness her presentation if possible.. and got to work damn hard for year 2 ? they say its worst than hell, worst than year 1.. after all, maybe i still need a her, not just want but probably need? pilot will be next alternative for job.. to travel and to see the world, can be quite interesting ar? till then.. oo in the end i still wish u happy birthday, what is going on in this world leh.. agrh !
had put in everything that we could, and even results doesnt show much, i know i had did my best already..really.


2:33 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
AND IT STARTED RAINING. COULDNT MAKE IT TO SCHOOL AS USUAL =/


11:41 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Sunday, March 15, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

I AM HAPPY THAT I QUIT MY JOB..ALTHOUGH IN THE PAST I CAN SEE COUNTLESS OF PRETTY GIRLS WHO DINE IN OR WHO SHOP AT TAMPINES MALL, BUT I HAD A PRICE TO PAY, IS TO SORT OF NEGLECT MY STUDIES..SO WHY SHOULD I TAKE THE RISK, WHEN THE RESPONSIBILITY OF A STUDENT IS TO STUDY, NOT TO WORK! ERM, OR WORK AT YOUR OWN TIME AFTER STUDIO HOURS AND FINSIHED UP ASSIGNMENTS.. THEN BY ALL MEANS.. SO SINCE TAMPINES ONE IS OPENING SOON, THERE ARE BOUND TO BE VACANCY FOR JOBS. SO I TOLD MY MUM ABOUT GETTING A NEW JOB..FOR DUNO WHAT RESIGN THEY, MY SIS AND MUM START TALKING ABOUT ITS WRONG THAT I RESIGN DUE TO HOT HEADED, AND LEFT LIKE THAT..TOTALLY IRRESPONSIBLE..AND SAID I ONLY HAVE SUCH A SMALL HEAD WANT TO WEAR SUCH A BIG HAT..O PLEASE DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW BUSY ON A SATURDAY NIGHT CAN BE? NEW MANAGER, NEW RULES..HE WANTED ONCE A CUSTOMER LEFT BRING IN THE NEXT CUSTOMER IMMEDIATELY...SO I AM SUPPOSE TO LET MY MANAGER KNOW ABOUT THIS PROBLEM..O, HE LEFT..O LET THE ASSISTANT MANAGER KNOW, FOR GOODNESS SAKE THEY DUNO A SINGLE THING ABOUT THE AUTHORISE TO ADDING ORDERS... FOR THAT RESTAURANT MANAGER ONLY TRUST HIM HIM AND HIM..SO WHY STAYING AT A PLACE WHEN THERE IS NO ORDER, NO TRUST... AND AFTER NUMEROUS EXPLANATION, THEY STILL THINK I SHOULDNT LEAVE...FOR GOODNESS GRACIOUS WHY WORKING AT A PLACE WHERE THEY RESTIRCT YOU FROM WORKING, AND GO ALL OUT FOR YOUR WORKING ABILITIES? I THINK INTERIOR DESIGNER ALSO BETTER THAN SERVICE LOR, ALTHOUGH BOTH HAVE THEIR TOUGH PARTS.. AT LEAST I WONT GIVE UP WORKING AS AN INTERIOR DESIGNER LIKE YOU -.- OKAY I HOPE I DUN SAY THINGS TO EARLY, WHEN I ALMOST GAVE UP ONCE.. I NEED THINGS THAT ARE NOT MATERIALISE.. MAYBE ONLY YOU CAN FILL IN THAT NEED.. AND MY TRUST TO PEOPLE ARE GETTING WEAKER AND WEAKER, DUE TO UNNECCESSARY ACTIONS BY HUMAN BEINGS =/ MAYBE I AM STILL SINGLE DUE TO MY HOT HEADED ACTIONS.. MAYBE ONLY LA.. MY JOB MY DECISION, I SETTLE.. I DECIDED TO LEAVE BECAUSE I DUN SEE ANY REASON IN STAYING, EVERYONE ELSE ARE FINDING NEW JOB, OR THEIR CONTRACT ARE EXPIRING SOON, SOME EVEN GOT TERMINATED AND EVEN HAVE THE URGE OF QUITTING IT...ITS ONLY THE MATTER OR TIME ONLY, MINE JUST HAPPEN TOO EARLY.. THATS ALL.. AND I COULDNT DO ANYTHING TO HELP MY WIFE, USELESS? PROBABLY.
GOODNESS GRACIOUS LEH !


1:24 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Saturday, March 14, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

WHAT ISIT THAT YOU WANT LEH -.-
OKAY THIS WEEK IS A FULFILLING, INTENSIVE, PRODUCTIVE AND FUCKED UP WEEK. FULFILING BECAUSE I ATTEND SCH FOR THE WHOLE WEEK, IGNORE THE LATE PART =X INENSIVE BECAUSE ITS A WEEK FROM MORNING 8-9 TILL 22-23. IT TOOK ME ERMS 4 DAYS AND 3 NIGHTS FOR MY 10 AUTOCAD DRAWINGS, TO SCALE ! INCLUDES, SITE PLAN, FLOOR PLAN, REFLECTED CEILING PLAN, FOUR ELEVATIONS-NORTH, SOUTH, EAST, WEST, 2 SECTIONAL DRAWING AND A LOCATION PLAN OF THE MAIN SECURITY GUARD TOGETHER WITH THE WHOLE TP BUILDING =/ SO FAR I'VE DONE ALL 10 DRAWINGS EXCEPT DIMENSIONING AND STORYBOARDING.. PRODUCTIVE BECAUSE HAVE BEEN DOING WORK.. FUCKED UP, BECAUSE.... I WENT BACK TO WORK THIS WEEKEND, SO THE RESTAURANT MANAGER FORGOTTEN ME, SO HE TEST ME AGAIN..TO TEST MY ABILITIES, HE WAS AMAZED (OFCOURSE, I WAS TRAIN PLEASE) SO HE DELETED MY PASSWORD TO ACCESS FOR KEYING ORDER AND CASH OUT FUNCTIONS.. HOWEVER HE RETURN ME, BUT WIHT ONLY TAKING ORDER FUNCTION NOT ADDING ORDERS.. SO WHAT DO I DO IF CUSTOMERS WERE TO ADD ORDERS FROM ME ? KEEP DISTURB OTHERS FOR MY WORK? YOU THINK MY COLLEGUE WILL ENTERTAIN ME? THOSE ARE MALAYS IDIOT... I ONE PERSON BETTER THAN TWO OF THEM PLUS TOGETHER PLEASE, THREE MAYBE IN THE PAST... (NOT TO SHOW OFF)ANYWAY, THAT RGM WAS THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT DOESNT TRUST ANYONE...SO WHAT IF HE DOESNT TRUST ME? I DUN NEED HIS TRUST FOR GOODNESS SAKE, BUT AT THE VERY LEAST... TRUST MY ABILITIES? OR AT THE VERY LEAST.. DUN LIMIT AN ORDERTAKER FOR DOING GOOD SERVICE TO CUSTOMERS. I ASKED MYSELF, SHOULD I LEFT JUST LIKE THAT GO AND NEVER COME BACK AGAIN, OR I WILL BE DOING SOME KIND OF SERVICE THAT DOESNT SATISFY CUSTOMERS? ANW, ITS A LONG AND TIRED WEEK FOR ME....SO, RESIGN MIGHT BE A BETTER CHOICE TOO, BESIDES THAT SHIT PAY..ALTHOUGH I WAS HAPPY TO WORKED TODAY THO.. REALLY!
MONEY MONEY, I NEED...
OKOK IN THIS SHIT WORLD, WHO WILL REALLY CARE SO MUCH MAN...IF U HAD A FRIEND, WHOS BOYFRIEND DIDNT ALLOW HER TO GO OUT WITH OTHER GUYS BUT YET HE, HIMSELF WENT OUT WITH OTHER GIRLS.. WHAT IS THIS REASONING MAN... AND WORST, YOUR FRIEND SIDES HIM AS MUCH AS SHE CAN, OF COURSE SHE LOVES HIM MA "LOVES AS IN, NOTHING IN NAME BUT ARE TOGETHER" WHAT ISIT LEH, SERIOUSLY.. YA DUN THINK TOO MUCH... SUDDENTLY I FELT SO FINE ATTENDING SCHOOLS... O MAYBE ITS, EYE CANDY A =D... SERIOUSLY LA... IF I CAN BE THE ONE TO SENT U HOME, WHA THAT WOULD BE HEAVENLY.. ALTHOUGH ITS LIKE SO LATE, YOU HAVE TO TRAVEL BACK IN THAT LONG BUS/TRAIN RIDE ALONE =/ YOU COULD HAVE MY COMPANY, LIKE REAL -.-
OKAY, REMEMBER NOT EVERYTHING , YOU CAN DO SOMETHING TO IT... PRACTICAL BITCH.. THEREFORE, YOU WILL HAVE KARMA, SAME AS WHAT I MIGHT HAVE ? DO 9817409272947295879575072042 GOOD DEEDS TO REPAY YOUR 1 BAD DEED. MAKE SENSE?
AT LEAST BUSY IN SCHOOL, DOESNT KEEP ME OCCUPIED FROM THINKING THOSE PEOPLE WHO LEFT MY WORLD.. I AM FINE, IF YOU LEFT MY WORLD TOO.. BUT NOT THOSE WHO LEFT PELASE =/
NEXT WEEK, WOULD BE UP TO CHALLANGES AND EYE CANDY A =D

Closer - Inoue Joe


10:32 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE RIGHT? RIGHT.


12:49 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

RECENTLY ALOT OF DEATH EH? LOTS OF FUNERAL SETTING UP IN MY NEARBY NEIGHBOURHOOD. SO PEOPLE COME AND PEOPLE BOUND TO GO.. O WELL, A FEW GO AGAIN.. WTH. I DUNO WHY I COULDNT SET COLOURS ON POST ANYMORE... MAYBE COLOUR WILL MAKE IT MORE INTERESTING AND LIFE MORE INTERESTING EH ? AFTER ALL... ALL I ASKED WAS, HOW I COULD WAKE UP IN THE EARLY MORNING.. AND WAS CONCLUDE THAT I AM GIVING UP -.- HUMANS SURE ARE WEAK EH... THE PORCUPINE WAR HAS ALL ALONG COMMENCING.. TWO MORE YEARS LEH, NOT THAT I COULDNT SURVIVE BUT PLEASE TEACH ME SURVIVAL SKILLS. IT'S TIRING.. MAYBE AFTER I MADE A MISTAKE ON SELECTING EH? I DIDNT LOOK AT THE PICTURES ANYMORE, HOWEVER I LOOKED UP TO THE REAL ONE..WHAT SHOULD I DO ? DIDNT I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO FALL FOR THAT SIMPLE TRAP? I WOULD NEVER EVER H.....
IF LIFE IS A SHOW, IT WOULD APPEAR IN DRAMA..THEN I WOULD SET IT IN A FERRIS WHEEL, SINGAPORE FLYER? 2 SINGLE INDIVIDUAL ENCLOSE UP IN THE AIR...ADMIRE THE PICTURESQUE VIEW, EMBRACE TIGHTLY AND THE INCOMPLETE CONFESSION. WILL IT JUST END WHEN THE BACKGROUND WAS DIFFERENT? MARRIED COUPLES SHOULD LOOK AT HOW THEIR WEDDING WAS CONDUCTED, THE PHOTOS THAT WERE TAKEN AND THE HARDSHIP AND THE "SWEETSHIP" THAT THEY TOOK TO REACH HERE SO FAR..
THOSE FEELINGS FORM A SINGLE TEAR..


12:35 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Monday, March 09, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,


Aoi Aoi Ano Sora - Ikimono Gakari
I SHOULDN'T HAVE TOOK THOSE WORDS SERIOUSLY, AND NOW I JUST BROWSE THROUGH THOSE PICTURES AS IF I REALLY MISSED YOU THAT BADLY. WHAT SHOULD I REALLY DO? I'VE NEVER FELT SO USELESS BEFORE.. ITS LIKE YOU KNOW/SENSE THAT YOUR FRIEND/S IS/ARE IN DANGER AND ALL YOU COULD DO WAS, STAND THERE? AND DO NOTHING. I REALLY HATE THIS FEMALE KIND OF BLOODLINE. I AM HAVING THIS "INSTINCT" WHICH I THINK ITS AS POWERFUL AS A FEMALE SIXTH SENSE WAS FLOWING THRU ME, AND OF COURSE... JUST HOW MANY MORE PEOPLE ARE GOING TO WALKED OUT MY LIFE JUST LIKE THAT! ME ALONE COULDN'T CHANGE THE FACT THAT THEY LEFT.. WILL I REMAIN SINGLE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE? BETTER NOT -.-
I TOTALLY HATE SHORT FORMS LIKE, GTH? WHATS THAT? GO TO HELL? SOMEONE TEXT ME THAT AND WENT OFFLINE =/ I COULDN'T CARE LESS.
PURSUING PERFECTION IS ALSO A KIND OF IMPERFECTION.

Leng Zhan 冷戰 - Yang Cheng Lin 楊丞琳


3:58 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Saturday, March 07, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

WAS IT REALLY A CRUSE ?
WE HAVE NOT ATTEND MORNING CLASS FOR 3 LESSONS ALREADY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY... THE REASON, WE DO NOT KNOW... THIS POST IS DEFINTELY NOT THE SUMMARY OF OUR MUNDANE LIFE. NOT THAT WE ARE HAVING MUNDANE LIFE, BUT JUST DIDNT WANT TO MISUNDERSTOOD IT.
WE WATCHED MOVIE WITH _______ : "HES JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU" & "PUSH" OKAY, SO PUSH WAS TOTALLY A PSYCHOLOGICAL MOVIE, I WOULD SAY... I GOT THIS FEELING THAT I CAN SEE THE FUTURE WITH MY "INSTINCT" JUST LIKE THAT GIRL... OR WHOEVER THAT CAN SEE THE FUTURE IN THAT SHOW.. INTERESTING HAR? HOWEVER WE DO NOT THINK SO..
WE AM REALLY TOO SCARED TO CONTINUE KNOWING THE FUTURE, WE KNOW WE CAN CHANGE THE FUTURE, SHAPE THE FUTURE, BUT WE ARE SICK AND TIRED OF SEEING OURSELVES BEING ALONE, DESPITE WE FOUND MRS TAN? -.- CHEY.. WE ARE SO NOT GOING TO GET TRICK OVER SOME JOKES. OUR INSTINCT ALSO TOLD US THAT WE ARE BEING PRANKED ON.. BEFORE THEY COULD PRANK US..PISCES KAR? TOUGH GIRL..
ONE THING WE COULD BE SURE IS, WE REMAIN SINGLE FOR THE NEXT FOUR YEARS. ALTHOUGH WE DO FOUND POTENTIALS ALONG OUR WAY..
OUR INSTINCT WORK SO DIFFERENTLY... I THOUGHT WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT, HOWEVER WE LOST BEFORE THE SHOW END.. HES JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU? "HAPPY HUSBAND, END UP GETTING DIVORCE FOR REPEATED LIES, POOR WIFE DECIDED TO DIVORCE WHEN SHE PLANNED TO RECOVER THEIR MARRIAGE BUT COULDNT STAND WITH THE LIES. THAT LADY, BREAK UP WITH THE PARTNER, BECAUSE HE DIDNT WANT TO GET MARRIED.. THAT POOR GUY? GET KICKED AWAY, BECAUSE HE DIDNT BELIEVE IN MARRIAGE.. AND LIVE ALONE TRAVELLING AT SEA, BUT STILL LOVED HER AND HELPED HER WHEN SHE NEEDED... AND THEY GET MARRIED! THAT LOST GIRL, WHO COULDNT FIND HER LOVED ONES, AFTER REPEATED DATES AND ALL THE WAITING FOR CALLS, PLANNING WAHT TO DO NEXT, WAS TOGETHER WITH THE HE, THE HE WHO HELPED HER ALONG THE WAY, DIDNT EXPECT THAT WAS LOVE THAT HE STEP ONTO IT... THAT CHEAP BITCH, SLEPT WITH 2 GUYS, AND ENDED UP BEING ALONG, I BET WITHOUT REALLY KNOW TRUE LOVE.. LASTLY THAT POOR LADY WHO ALWAYS COMMUNICATE WITH GUYS THRU OTHER COMMUNICATIONS EXCEPT FOR PHONE AND REAL LIFE, FOUND SOMEONE THAT ATTRACT HER THRU ADVERTISMENT.."
INTERESTING ? IT INVOVLVES LOTS OF TRIANGULAR RELATIONSHIPS... I COULD HAVE ATE THAT FRIED SUSHI? WHEN U FEEDING ME.. THAT DUMB GUY WHO SEAT BESIDES ME? DAMN IT, WITH YOUR BAD BREATH, AND U TALKED AND U MOVE ALOT.... I WONDER WHAT YOUR GIRLFRIEND SEES IN YOU... GOT SPACE TO GO HUG HUG , DUN LEAN NEAR ME LA -.- FUCKING GAY ! OKAY PLEASE PLEASE, SOMEONE LET ME BE CALM IN MY SINGLE LIFE... I REALLY GOT TO GET USED TO THIS ! I CANT BE IN A RELATIONSHIP... BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT I AM GAY FOR GOODNESS SAKE, IS SERIOUSLY I AM SICK AND TIRED TO FIND MY ANOTHER HALF..
I AM WAY TOO TIRED.
I MAY BE NICE, BUT I MIGHT BE OUT OF MY WORDS WHEN I AM WITH YOU.... I MIGHT KNOW WAHT U NEED BUT I MIGHT NOT GIVE U WAHT U WANT...COMPLICATED STUFFS? NFBKNLJDFUIALKNDSK PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK !
I WAS REJECTED WAY BEFORE ALREADY.. O, I WAS LATE FOR THE MOVIE AND I BROKE THAT PROMISE ABOUT THE GIFT.. I BET I DIDNT HAVE TO GIVE IT TO YOU ANYMORE.. YOUR BIRTHDAY? I AM DEFINTELY NOT THE ONE WHO IS GOING TO CELEBRATE WITH YOU, GIVING U BAG OF CHOCOLATES AND HOLDING OVER A CHOCOLATE CAKE WITH LIGHTED CANDLES WHILE WE HAVING OUR BUFFET... O , BTW I MISS BELINDAS AND WENDY.. *NOTE:BELINDS AS IN 2 BELINDA THAT I KNOW.. THEY ARE EXAMPLES THAT WAS OUT OF MY WORLD.. I HAVE 9874636834206562 OF OTHER EXAMPLES THAT HAS LEFT.. AM I DEPRESSED? I GUESSED A LITTLE, BUT IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR LECTURES, SO DUN WORRY.. LONG POST? I BET NO ONE WILL EVER READ TILL CHUBURA'S LYRICS AND TILL HERE .. IF U DID, WOW, U SURE ARE PATIENT, WANTING TO KNOW ABOUT ME.... BUT THIS POST IS RATHER CONFUSING...ASK ME, IF U REALLY WANT TO KNOW =/


1:22 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Monday, March 02, 2009
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

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WE HAVE ALREADY PACKED ALL OUR FEELINGS AND PREPARED, READY TO DO WAHT WE CAN IN SCHOOL. WE WOULDNT CONCLUDE NOW BECAUSE ITS THE FIRST DAY OF THE LAST BLOCK; HOWEVER "CRUSE" REALLY MAKE IT HARD TO SURVIVE.. WE SHOULD BELIEVE THAT, " OH, ITS A COINCIDENCE THAT IT HAPPENED" OR " WE WILL DEFEATED THIS CRUSE REGARDLESS WAHT IT TAKES" SO WAHT IF WE DEAL WITH THIS PROBLEM OR SOME BIGGER PROBLEM THAT WE HAVE EXPECTED.. " WEAPONS IS TO PROTECT OR TO HURT? " WHEN YOU SPOKE, WAS IT A WORD OF CONCERN OR WAS IT CRUSE?! CONCLUSION: ONLY YOUR HEART KNOWS.

distance - LONG SHOT PARTY

A FEW INCIDENT, WERE HARD TO EXPECT AND IT LEADS TO A BYE. ASKED FOR A MORNING CALL AT 845 FROM A FRIEND WHO WOULD BE IN SCHOOL AT 6/7.. IS NATURAL, SINCE YOU ARE AWAKE BY THEN.. WHEN WE SLEPT AT 415 EARLY IN THE MORNING, WHEN WE HAD MISS COUNTLESS OF MORNING CLASS, THEN WE HAD TO FIND WAYS TO DEAL WITH IT.. ALARM CLOCK IS ONE WAY, BUT ITS NOT CONCRETE, HOWEVER THAT WAS THE LAST CONVERSATION WE HAD.. AN UNEXPECTED MORNING CALL, WITH ALL THE VULGARITIES WHICH WAS UNECCESARY, WHICH WE STILL DUNO WHY IT HAPPENED TILL NOW... WHICH LEADS TO A CUT OFF TIES AND GOODBYE _____.

A CLASS OF 23 (21), WERE DIVIDED INTO GROUPS OF 4, WHEN 14 WERE IN CLASS... 2 GROUPS WERE FORMED WHICH REMAINS 14-8=6. 5 PLUS WE, WHILE THE 5 WAS A CLIQUE AND PLANNED TO FORM A GROUP WITHIN EACH OTHER.. SUBMISSION WAS ON THE FOLLOWING WEEK; MONDAY.. SO WAHT WAS THE RUSHED THEN? CANT U SEE THERE IS NO ONE IN CLASS? WHAT MAKES U CONCLUDE THAT KEEP QUIET MEANS WE ARE NOT FORMING ANY TEAM.. MAYBE U ARE AT THE HEART OF CONCERN TO HOW YOU DIDNT WANT LATE WORK POLICY TO HAPPEN, OR RATHER U CONCLUDE THAT WE DIDNT CHANGE AT ALL OVER THE MONTHS.

ITS NATURAL THAT WE ARE HUNGRY, THEREFORE WE WILL SEARCH FOR FOOD TO FILL OUR STOMACH.. SO CHICKEN RICE WAS IN OUR MIND, OPP SCH WAS CHEAP TOO.. TOO BAD, IT CLOSED ON MONDAY.. SO WE DECIDED THAT OUR HOUSE BELOW HAD CHICKEN RICE TOO AND DECIDED TO GO.. BUT WE WAS DISAPPOINTED THAT WE DO NOT HAVE CHICKEN RICE TO EAT, CAUSE IT CLOSES TOO. AGAIN; COINCIDENCE OR CRUSE?

OUR FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY JUST PAST AND OUR FRIEND WAS FROM JC... ITS PROBABLY THAT OUR FRIEND WAS IN J2 NOW..SO OUR THINKING WAS , PROBABLY OUR FRIEND WAS BUSY COPING WITH SCHOOLWORK THEREFORE WE WAITED PATIENTLY, HOPING THAT ONE DAY OUR FRIEND WOULD COME BACK AFTER ALL THE HARDWORK..BUT, WE HEARD FROM OUR FRIEND THAT OUR FRIEND~ WAS THERE, JUST THAT WE DO NOT KNOW AND WE WAS DECIEVED BY THE COUNTLESS MESSAGES. ZERO REPLY. WHEN WE DIDNT DID ANYTHING AT ALL, OUR LAST CONVERSATION WAS FRUITFUL TOO, SO WAHT REALLY GOING ON IN THIS WORLD! THIS DIDNT HAPPENED THE FIRST TIME IN OUR LIFE... SO IT WAS A COINCIDENCE OR A CRUSE?

WE ALSO KNOW THAT THIS ISNT THE WAY TO SOLVE THE CURRENT SITUATION, WE ALSO REALISE ITS NATURAL TO FALL ONCE IN AWHILE BUT DIDNT WE JUST FALL TOO MANY TIMES ALREADY? SO EXACTLY WHAT IS IT, A CRUSE OR A COINCIDENCE ?!

CAN WE REALLY MAKE IT ? WHEN WE JUST PURELY WANTED TO FIND THE SOLUTION TO THE SITUATION BUT WAS BLAMED THAT WE ARGUE THAT WE DIDNT GET THE CONCERN, WE ARE NOT THINKING THAT WAY, WE JUST WANT SOLUTION WITHOUT LETTING THE SITUATION OUT BIG... WE ACTUALLY FOUND A WAY, IS TO IGNORE THAT IT WAS THERE, SINCE IT HAPPENED.. BUT WE ARE VERY SOFT HEARTED, WE CANT BARE TO LEAVE PEOPLE WHOM THEY LOVE.

WE ARE ALRIGHT THAT WE ARE NOT ATTACHED, WE EVEN PREPARED TO WAIT, KNOWING IT WILL COME IN DUE TIME.. HOWEVER FOR THE TIME BEING, PLEASE STOP LETTING ME KNOW NEW PEOPLE, FOR WE DO NOT WANT TO LOSE THEM ANYMORE.

IN THE COLD, WITH FAN ON TO THE MAX IN THIS RAINING DAY.. WE WERE UPSET THAT WE DUN FEEL A SENSE OF CHILL AT ALL.

WHY DO YOU NOT THINK THAT WE CHANGED? WHEN I EVEN PRAISED YOU FOR FINALLY CONDUCTED SOMETHING UP TO MY EXPECTATION..WE ENJOYED ACTUALLY, BUT YOUR RUSHING SPIRIT TURN US DOWN TOTALLY.

PROBABLY YOU'VE FORGOTTEN THAT WE SAID THAT WE AND YOU WILL STILL BE FRIENDS EVEN THE SKY DROP DOWN.. UNFORTUNALY WE COULDNT DO ANYTHING TO HELP YOU, WE...

MAYBE THE PURPOSE OF YOU LEFT, WAS RIGHT SINCE WE AND YOU ARE NOT COMPATIBLE AT ALL.. THE APPERANCE, THEN INTELLIGENCE AND THE MATURITY.. WE NO LONGER CARE ARE WE GROWN UP ANYMORE, BECAUSE THE KID WHICH WAS IN US WAS HURT SO MUCH BY MERE WORDS.
WE USED TOO MUCH AND RELY TOO MUCH ON OUR INSTINCT. EMOTIONLESS MAYBE WILL DRIVE US FURTHER..

IF YOU CHANCE UPON READING THIS, PLEASE DUN CONCLUDE IMMEDIATELY, FOR WE MIGHT NOT MEAN WHAT YOU THOUGHT. I SHOULD HAVE NORMINATE A FOR THAT AWARD.. WE'VE LEARNED ALOT FROM A AND WAS APPRECIATED, ITS A PITY THAT A WASNT WHO WE WANTED A TO BE.

B,Y, AND Z HELPED ME; I GUESSED I DISAPPOINTED THEM..
WE SAW THE SUN TRYING SO HARD TO SHINE IN THE STORMY AND RAINY DAY WITH LIGHTING; WAS COVERED BY CLOUD AND MIST THAT FORM DURING THE PRECIPITATION JUST TO ALLOW US TO SEE THE SKY AGAIN.

JUST WHAT ATTRIBUTES DOES WE HAVE? PROBABLY WE ARE ALWAYS GETTING SO HEAD-HOTTED AND RUSHED INTO SITUATION WITHOUT STANDING BACK AND HAVE A CLEARER VIEW OF IT.

WE DIDNT WANT TO GIVE UP, BUT WE ARE VERY TIRED..


CHU-BURA - KELUN


Chu bura minna kimochi o kakaete
kyou mo toki wa nagare sugi teyuku
kimi wo mitsumeru tabi komi ageru
omoi mo uwa kutsutaerare nai mama

itsu no manika wasureteita namidaga umareru basho o tamotte

saa mabuta o agete sono namida to hiki kaeni
tobitatte ikeru sono te ni todoku youni

omoi dashitanda kimino uta o setsuna ku omou kimochi wo

onaji DORAMA mo nandomo miteru
youna sonna kigashiteta zutto
kimi ga waratte kureta shunkan ni
atarashii SUTOORI ga hajimatta

Chu bura minna aseta hibi ga iro tsuiteiku no ga wakattanda

saa mabuta o agete kodokuni suri kaeteta
nakushiteta yuuki wo kono te ni kakage you
koraeteta namida ima omoi dashitakara
kimi no te o nigitte monogatari wa hajimaru

aa ikusen no yoru wo koete ima kokoni iru
kizutsuitatte ii sa ima tsutae wa
saa mabuta o agete hitoride furueteita
kimi no te o nigitte omoi wo tsutaeru no da

omoi dashitanda kimino uta o setsunaku omou kimochi wo
hadaka no mama no kokoro wo

CHU-BURA


I hold feelings that are suspended in space,
Today, time is passing by too much
Everytime I stare at you, my heart is fills
with thoughts but i still can't convey them well

Without realizing it, I forgot
to follow the place where tears are produced

Now, open your eyes
to those tears conversly
Let it fly
in order to reach that hand

I remember your song
and painfully thinking about your feelings

I've watched this drama so many times 
I always felt just like that
The moment you gave me a smile
a new story began

The faded days, hanging suspended in space
I knew they were filling with color

Now open your eyes
replace your loneliness with something more
find your lost courage, and hold it high!
I've remembered now the tears I was holding back
I'll take your hand and our story will begin

Aah, I passed a thousand nights to arrive here
It's ok to get hurt, say it now!
Now, open your eyes
You were shaking alone
and I grabbed your hand in order to tell you my feelings

I remember your song
and painfully thinking about your feelings
with my naked heart


Hitohira no Hanabira - Stereo Pony

WE ARE DONE.

WATCHED THE NEWS JUST NOW, AND GOT A LECTURER AT NUS GOT STABBED, CRUSE OR COINCIDENCE AGAIN? SERVE HIM RIGHT?


5:54 PM

it continues to stain, why?.