3 wishes. (__________, _______, Auntie Oh win 4D first prize.)
18 years old.
i dun want to regret anymore.
i dun even care,
if you care or not.
the ability was born with it.
mind games can be quite fun,
only within the time.
too much would mislead as
irritation.
touching stories, great sacrifice.
i wish to be like her,
somehow was just dreaming.
i aware of my strengths
together with my weaknesses.
one piece was stopped,
for 3 consequtive days.
assignments never stop pile-ling.
conicidence allow us,
to met each other.
meals was never accurate.
amount was always too much,
but too less this time.
you contradict yourself,
and i thought i found a chance.
ignorance is like byebye,
we didnt even bid goodbye.
good people exist.
so as bad people too.
it tiring to live,
but i've been holding on till now.
the busy routine you have,
the laziness filled me,
assignments were anyhow-ed.
happiness was short for that sense,
but i'm trying so hard,
so hard just to retrive it.
candles? one out of eighteen.
back sec sch, teachers
schoolmates, friends, people.
text message flood-ed.
i have to force it from flowing.
totally dislike chocolate.
the tastiest ____?
not for me,
Type words started with caps?
Was no longer of use anymore.
No point in pursuing something,
Nonsense. -.-
H&C
Form ex
Dumb he, Damn grades.
Shit him, didnt allow me to finish presenting.
Pervertic sensei, irritating shit !
toyo ito's presentation, self- satisfied.
no movies, no dinner, no dating
but got one piece.
new block,
material & finishing.
2D art fundamentals.
surviving rate 50%
determination 10%
supportive peers 85%
willing-ness 60%
you? 100% - 0%
cable tv, chit chats.
crazy weather, raining.
umbrell-katana.
holiday, delayed.
CANNOT CRY LA -.-
go sleep, drink water!
eat less , and eat more
assignment, quickly do
bye la.

the above following was written without a sequence, so some doesnt make any sense at all. post can be as long as the first week of august up till today. problems might have solved, but still anyhow-ing. this is a shitty post, and read it while shitting, you probably can make a guess out of which you i am referring to you. but! dun try to figure out yourself and be one smart alack and claim you are that you, when its not you. thank you.
so this is how eighteen feels like.. besides the M18 movies, liquour and others, there isnt you.

sometime back, during my sec sch life..i came out with something like, once u solve this big thing, a bigger thing will arrive depends on its timing. however this time, u have to deal with it , with a higher thinking, higher tolerance than the previous one. therefore its always never easy, but develop this thinking, and somehow u will realise u have been just troubling over trival matters.

2:33 AM
it continues to stain, why?.

i seriously thank God, for letting me witness that scene. one way to tell me an answer, another to get out of this troubling thingy and also found a reason to hate you. partially regretted to hate you, but it wasnt right for the opposite. just like you wont eat sweets with rice because both of them are sweet, and you bound not to taste either one of them. although up to now, i still dun get the reason as i am suppose to catch some sleep, and enjoy myself at johor later. in a way, i am really very sorry, sorry to those that believed in me, that i gave up so easily, sorry to those who hated me, hated means depart from my life. sorry to myself, ended up in this tragic scenario which shouldnt even exist.
maybe you should put yourself in my shoes.. cause sometimes, you might be thinking alot. and you just suddenly come and ask me to search my heart etc... assuming that i know everything youre thinking and what not... BUT IN ACTUAL FACT, I DONT.
so you leave me in confusion,
you leave me thinking what the hell did i do to make you unhappy!? and hence my day always ends like this.
okay, school was getting more and more worst. i believe my lectuerer doesnt even bother about my progress, not that i seek attention but to use your heart and feel the punch that would make you do better wasnt there.
o shit, one day i should crack my head and see what does my brain look like =/ and open up my heart and see does it stain, cause you stabbed me without me bleeding.no wonder a tight slap wasnt enough.
as usual, sailing against the vast ocean finding my support, at the same time, all i could be waiting was waht is ahead the horizon. paradise.
我们太相爱了, 如今我才明白爱有它自己的节拍

1:41 AM
it continues to stain, why?.