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WHO
[x] tanENGSING
[x] SEVENTEEN
[x] VIRGO
[x] SINGLE
[x] PERFECTIONIST

WHAT

[x] EVERLASTING RELATIONSHIP
[x] [<3(GIRLFRIEND <3 ME)]
[x] ???FAMILY (=
[x] DESIGN-ED TOPS & BOTTOMS
[x] ANTI-REVERSE PSYCHO

WHY
[x] MUSICS
[x] FM93.3
[x] CHEMISTRY
[x[ HONEY
[x] WHITE COLOUR
[x] HER
[x] LIARS
[x] MATHEMATICS
[x] EMPTY PROMISES
[x] CHOCOLATES
[x] TEACHERS
[x] FAKE'PEOPLES

WHERE

* ADELINE
* ANGIE
* ANNE
* ASHIKIN
* ASLIEEN
* AZMI
* BAOTING
* BAOYI
* BELINDA
* BERNARD
* BIFEI
* BOONKHIN
* BRIAN
* CAIYUN
* CAYLN
* CHENPEI
* CHERYL
* CHERYL NG
* CHLOE
* CHOONYI
* CHRIS
* CLEMENT
* DOMINIC
* DUNHAO
* E444
* GEOKTENG
* GERALDINE
* GRACE
* GUANLONG
* HUAPENG
* HUDA
* IRENE
* JASMINE AW
* JASMINE TAN
* JACQUELINE LEE
* JACQUELINE PHUA
* JASNIE
* JEREMY
* JIERUI
* JIEQI
* JINGKAI
* JINGYU
* JOO
* JOYCE
* JUNHUI
* JUNYU
* KELLY
* LEMUEL
* LEONARD
* LIANGYING (VICKI)
* LISA GOH
* LISA HO
* LYNETTE
* MAVIS
* MEIYAN
* NELSON
* NICHOLAS
* PEIFEN LIN
* PRISCILLIA
* QIANHUI
* RACHEL
* REBECCA
* REGINA
* RONGRONG
* SAMUEL
* SANDRA
* SEOWCHEAN
* SHANICE
* SIHUI
* SIYING
* SHUTING
* SHUZHEN
* VIVIENNE
* WANZHUANG
* WEILING
* WENDY
* XIAOYING
* XINHUI
* XINYI
* XINYU
* XUANHUI
* YANBING
* YANDE
* YANPING
* YANWEI
* YOKEJIN
* YONGHENG
* YVONNE
* ZOELYN
__MY
FRIENDSTER

HOW

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Friday, June 30, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

i guess i admire mrs tan..my maths teacher..although she keep forcing me do maths problems..but she has lots of patience..she dun get upset, infact she always put up a smile when she enters the class..i always disappoint teachers..she is one of them..i really admire her for being her age..and she is so carefree..is she has no problem and always smile and being tolerant..even she was pissed off, she still try to maintain her image..and keep her cool
she even say if i skipped 1 question equals i running away from the problem..i hope i can solve all the problem i faced on the paper and real life..there something is beyond our control, but if i hold the key i wont let i happen..
1 week of school has pass..1 week of distant we seperated..1 week of loneliness that i suffer..and time flies, my exams are coming..it time for me to leave the school soon
and by the time it would be much more futher apart..i really love u, i really miss u..do u?


5:13 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Thursday, June 29, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today had a very long afternoon nap..was really exhausted..hates champion that guy said those words are so offensive with criticism..i miss the programme on radio while sleep too much.
not sure whether those starry eyes u have was on me anot, but i finally get to see inside your eyes..love beautiful, so beautiful...you are beautiful too anyways i really miss you

watching dramas..was crazy over it..


8:04 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today i am a good student..i force myself to do maths questions..and also stay back to do my dnt..

mdm yew or you..was my new geography teacher..while she's strict, but she's funny..she said must not absent from her lesson..even if sick also no excuess..must excercise 1 day 30 mins 1 week 3 times, it good for your immune system..like so funny..she added alot more funny de but lazy point out..

my monitor colour got problem..think spoilt soon..and i have to buy for myself..i am totally broke...where to print money..

this few days horoscope says my love luck very good..but seems nothing happen..or there may something but i didnt know..



6:19 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

life in school is getting boring and tired..worst i guess the life outside is worsen
continue with all the talks..by the principal again..sitting till backache,headache and leg numb,pain ARGH...but some of her words quite nice..example if too much of your strength is used, it will be your greatest weakness..erms something like that..cant remember clearly and didnt really pay attention..wonder she copied or she really that smart..
but she said something quite offensive?..she expect 4E8 to score 8 A1s and create a history for pasirris..then what about the sec 3 express studying currently..they are taking O levels next year..u expect more from them? u will stressed them..and they will go crazy...if they cant take it..bless them..
dnt teacher crapping again-.- he asked me to complete by friday and stay back tomorrow..if not yet get done..he going to take away my youth day de holiday...
maths worst..mrs tan eventually lie to me -.- she say i can do and i am not giving a chance to myself to present..what is there to present..the fact that i duno how to do maths is true..
went to ITE for trip..omg..i guess i wont get a chance to sit there and be a student in future..with my qualifications now..i am nothing compare to the worst student there..
i guess 10 years later i will comfirm becoming begger...anybody want to join me =X


6:12 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Monday, June 26, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

SCHOOL SUCKS school re-opens..as usual long morning talks..and talks talks..i am sick and tired of it..while today dnt..was even more crap..u know waht my teacher told me..i can finish my work by this week -.- which is impossible..then he continue why u look down on yourself when u can..i can do it..but not complete by this week -.- moreover alot of my classmates are completed or nearly complete..but me i am stuck...
it been 1 month from i last see u..anyways i got a feeling my studies will...we'll see at the end of the year bah..
today didnt eat much..kinda lose the sense of taste..drink a packet of soyabean during recess and ate..5 buns and a cup of cereal..awhile ago..
people around me are getting attached..when will it be my turn? i am Q-ing and waiting..hah~ what a joke


10:52 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

yesterday when to orchard de pacific plaza to continue search for adidas bag..then later went to bugis..and plaza singapura..and nearbly plaza sing..there this building call cathey something like cathey cineleisure opening soon..while taking mrt home..saw sihui,she going to hospital and see her boyfriend=X while there also pretty girls in the train =P
later went to work..there this customer starting already spoilt my mood..he shouted and me and say never give me chili sauce and ketchap how to eat this..his girlfriend only eat a beef steak..do u need both chili and ketchap? moreover u dun have to shout at me..while he still ask me dumb question..waht is this..when it obvious that it mashed potato..if not taste it and u will know..and he still ask me potato chinese call waht -.- ma ling shu la..who duno -.- luckily i am smart i put down the 2 sauces and say chili and this is tomato..too bad he cant question me any futher..so i left with anger..anyways joshua treats dinner =D cereal prawn and stingray..plus my chicken chop..was perfect..kinda enjoy eating..


12:56 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Sunday, June 25, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

LOL my language seems like its hard to understand..while viewers hope u dun misunderstand what i said..maybe it not what u read..anyways my english sucks so dun expect perfect sentence structure, cause i duno how and i am prepare to fail my N level english let rest O level...


2:05 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

ARGH...
tomorrow school starts..
got a feeling of going and not going..
school is something i like and i dun like..
how i wish life could be more meaningless without going schools..
anyways while i went back to work..
hahas after 5 days of resting and rotting at home..
while kinda miss those people like joshua,remington,lianjie,jeremy..
those aunties and captains..
but i heard that jeremy,lianjie,brendon..they are not working already..
joshua going soon..
alan and remington maybe left before the prelims..
while i duno should i stay anot..
i afraid it may affect my results..
but even if i stays at home i may not study..
so waht the point..
anyways that gal from the bar..
was kinda not bad..
and there another one..
also not bad, she even smiled when she look at me =X
but it total impossible..i am just dreaming,
while someone holds a birthday party at fisherman village...
erms they heard taht the cake cost $200 plus..
it just a cake -.- 200 dollars -.- that robbing..
anyways those people are rich cant be bothered..
joshua bring $300 to work -.- bring so much for what when i only bring $6 how pathetic...
while when i didnt work those days..2 captians had bitten by crabs..their finger is injured..
feel sad for them..
had this strong feeling of consuming alcohol..while i stopped for long time already
but when those days i consume is because i want to forget memories..
memories are hurtful but it can be a kind of happiness..i dun wish to suffer...


1:38 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Saturday, June 24, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

was talking on the phone till 6am in the morning..while had a few hours of sleep only..wake up at 1pm. how i wish i could sleep more..but anyways while chatting i learn another new thing..although learning so much and i cant use it i find it kinda useless..but after learning this new stuff i guess i cant stop learning..there many things for me to learn out there..many people waiting for me to save them..if i gave up now..there no more hope for those who are drowning in the pool..i once said when i solve problem i will be in their shoes..correct i did something like this..but i didnt consider why those people ignore me..not just due to i being irritating..i guess i wronged u..there many other more for u to do that..while taht moment i only thinks u hate me taht why u do that..but actually for u to ignore me really involves lots of thinking..being like this..i guess i really didnt understand u at all..hows u feels, hows u think...it either i wait, or i lose u..


3:51 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

WHAT THE FUCK why cant i have that adidas bag i love which u have it too...i know is kinda copy but i long wanted it..i know i buy it later..but so..is like humans selfish act..why cant peoples eat chicken rice when u ate it..peoples cant wear uniform cause u wear it too..is like peoples cant have the same thing as u have..is like..it just a bag..why u want to make a big fuss out of it..wasting my time and energy..agrh..hopefully i found better design before the school re-opens anyways get over with all those situations..hope the world ahead is beautiful =)


2:21 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Friday, June 23, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

was talking to belinda awhile ago..while was asking her will she mind having her husband earn 1000 monthly..or u will dump him divorce and runaway marrying another guy..she say depends who..then i starting say what if desmond she say dun care him la..then i say what about me..she say she wont..but later she say she duno..while i guess she trying to cheer me up..but when i heard waht she say is was really warm (wenxin) is like, taht the feel of a family..while..i also ask some other peoples..anyways human are selfish. by right human wont be suffer with that guy which only earn 1000 monthly..while 10 years later i will be 1 useless guy earning 1000 monthly..so either u married me or u dun..so dun hurt my feelings..cheat my hard earn money..and my love..while dreaming having a girlfriend now..is like kinda useless? cause i may not get a wife in future..i need u to be part of my family 10 years ago..will u come along..or u will u left me and go with another guy? can i cry? anyways thanks belinda..for saying those words..


4:37 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Thursday, June 22, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today was tiring..after long hours of walking with chenpei..to far east plaza then to cinelesiure then lastly heeren..in search for my bag=P while she want me to go with her to town..then sun bian accompany me lor=X while singapore is really small..we both saw friends? while shopping..
and also alot of pretty girls when coming out from orchard mrt stations..=X anyways i think i come to a conclusion already..to buy that $79 adidas sling bag white with navy blue strips? lol
suppose to go with chenpei,xinyu,enliang,jiesi and jasmin to kbox de..in the end duno why cancel plus i no money..while that "shopping" to orchard was fun too...while today also suppose to date u..but u not free? cause u say duno..anyways it kinda impossible too..today was kinda busy too..holiday ending soon mah..i really wish to enjoy myself..while left 3 more days..hope i still recieve dates=X i guess i am so dumb to commit the same mistakes again and again causing to to ignore me..anyways it my fault..and i cant do anything to it..tireds~~cravings for channel 8 7 oclock de drama..was touching and the lines are nearly to perfect..if my life is like that drama..while i duno? lol but it worth watching..really..loving it.


5:46 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

yesterday play gunbound from.. 2am - 4am..then talk from 4am - 5am..time really flies..suppose to go out with shuting and anne today..but they didnt wake me up..so was cancelled..and also duno whether they going tomorrow anot..my adidas bag..i not yet get it..anyways was talking to anne,shuting and gold..shuting was like so no manners..say what we "chou nan ren"..is like those guys who treat u badly for yoru pass few relationships it has nothing to do with me..anyways..yesterday talk from 4am-5am was like kinda sad...it total impossible to get a job $5000 monthly..while if all the woman in the world wanted a guy who has a job..more than $3000..tell u 20 years later i will still remain single..and continue earning with that $1000-$1800 monthly -.- anyways think before u follow me..u will suffer and not..enjoy..and i wish u could enjoy..but i cant give u that part of happiness..that u may wanted..money is a big problem
a relationship doesnt come by so easily..
love is fickle,love is blind,love leads to a dead end for someone
while i duno the real definition or definition of love..but we can duno it..but we must feel it,so the world will go round? dun u think so?


5:29 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

went to suntec city..meet up with jierui and brian..awhile later brian left..so went walk walk with jierui..at suntec..later go marina square also walk walk..and i bring him to a place quite romantic=x he can go there in future with...... anyways bought a t-shirt from fourskins with discount..dots my sis and my mum dun like..but i like..suppose buy black de..but dun have my size so buy white..anyways i love white..hahas..then later go esplanade..i also show him some romantic de place..while hope he can use it in future..as for me dun think i can bring the one i love there..so i think jierui can use it for someone he love..LOL then later saw this adidas bag at citylink but that not the design i want and it cost $79..done some stupid things..inbetween anyways i have done..there nothing i can do..after that go home..now they nagging about school re-open..homework do already,shoe wash already..packed bag..can u wake up early morning..was headache..hearing all these..can i not go back school =x


10:40 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

when this sudden thought came by my mind..the feeling was like more than happy..that we actually spend time playing basketball,cycling,go outs and lots of fun we have when we were young..but when it reminds me that those things that you all have done..it really make me wanna stab you with my sword..even now..i thought u all? may change but i guess i was wrong? can u dun b so smug will u? i hate this way of u, and that not the real u, u seems to change ever since i left..really wish i will stab u to death..can i?


4:02 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today at about 2am..was playing gunbound with zoelyn..so i know this guy..19 years old..single..study at ngee ann poly..while he is humourous..i kinda happy while talking with him..he dun seems to wanting a girlfriend..but he wants lots of wives..a weird guy..anyways..wake up late..kinda not satisfy..another day past..it like i am fighting against time..anyways think i going out..while will update later where i will be going..hope i will enjoy myself..


3:47 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Monday, June 19, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

LOL what a HUGE misunderstanding...u should have made it clear earlier on..anyways cant be bothered..people online to chat? or dun want to talk? since u dun wish to talk shut that computer of yours..or those who find those people who are irritating? then do something? argh..said earlier on..cant be bothered..anyways was planning to spend the last week of holidays wisely..as in have FUN..while the first day was already so upset..plus no dating..while hope tuesday is a better day tomorrow many thanks to zoelyn for helping me to add music to my blog..now it dun look so plain..and it quite perfect..thanks so much =)


4:28 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

while i not sure whether am i the sweetie.. but i guessed it me? why do you have to worry so much for me? end up causing you to burst to tears..after reading i had this feeling of crying..it like..so touching? i didnt expect you wishing, praying and worrying for me..what can i do now? it like too late? those bad memories we have..has been washed away..and those sweetmemories are remembered in our mind and heart..anyways i wished you happy always too..and all the thing you pray and wish for me..and also a happy birthday to you ying..its belated.


3:47 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

yesterday was damn unhappy..due to those stupid customers..no patience then dun eat la..what they rushing for..plus some are retarded they dun even know what they order FUCK -.- suppose can get pay..but later cannot cause was father day..all of them was like cursing and swearing lol..while i waited from 10pm till 12 midnight then get pay but was not the full sum..while i am understanding..business was not well..so called expected..anyways satay uncle drive me home..and was first time..wow~ he is careful in driving..and i love his car..although was cramp but i dun mind =x reach home at 1am..i reliase no pay = no fun and adidas bag..hope i can save enough for them..and that gal at the pub..lol she still smiling as usual..and she even shock me for once -.- argh..was thinking of quitting the job..but they like need helpers..anyways the reason for me to come to work is to forget unhappiness..and to occupied time..cause i have no one to spend time with me..example girlfriend? or family members..


1:58 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Sunday, June 18, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

good news..my computer is fixed..but the colour compare to the labtop slight different..plus i so addict to the keys in labtop already..yesterday at work was very busy..can u imagine the speed that i walk,can even messed up my hair -.- and the sweat dripping..then that gal working at the pub didnt poke me already,but she keep smiling LOL..anyways today can get pay =D..today is also father's day..cant be bothered..since i dun have a father 10 years ago..FUCK OFF..anyways i wish i can be a very happy de father with happiness,between 10-20 years later..


3:16 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Saturday, June 17, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

yesterday was..not bad..after have light lunch with shanwei..kinda full..then went for work. yesterday there this gal working at the pub..cause if customers order hot beverage..they have to ask us to make it..example coffee or tea but not me..so this gal was like poke me..then say this table..need what..was kinda cute la..she poke me -.- why dun call me eh or what..lol anyways yesterday was joshua last day..he was so pissed while working..he complained..everyweek get scolding..anyways i suppose to work till 2 but my leg are sour hands are numb and i am tired..cause carry those huge table tops was like 1 whole day of weight training..so didnt..while my last serve customers was actually the 2 jiejie selling bubble tea at 201,while i serve the food..1 of them was like eh..u work here..while the other was away..they order 3 dishes..so i had to walk 3 times back and fro..talk awhile and left..after serving was 11pm..back to home...anyways later afternoon my computer get fixed..but i spend $200 for the fixing -.- agrhh..later had to work till to 2am..bless me..


12:28 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Friday, June 16, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

5 plus then had some sleeps..while i guess it the latest rest i have during this holiday..while i kinds missed those days when i was at home playing game and sleep at 7am -.- and had fun outside reach home had sleep at 10 plus..anyways today sleep late wake up early..i waking at lots of times..disturb by birds,alarm clock,neighbour's noise and phone call..had a sweet dream..kinda miricale..anyways now raining -.- had late lunch with shanwei at 2 plus..now i am so tired wonder how i going work he 5pm must reach i 6pm..think going white sands ALONE walkwalk..i think i found a job 10 years later..BEGGER =D


1:40 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

OMG..a few minutes ago.i think my mother had nightmare..she mumbling something..like no or duno what..cant hear clearly..while i wake her up..hope she not frighten or what ..while she goes back to sleep..hope she alright..
why the sudden ignore u gave me..was afraid i will be like my mother having nightmare..was scared very scared..DUN PRERENCE.. will u?


1:28 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

yesterday suppose to go dating with chenpei..but she say she dun have money to spend..so nevermind, then was also suppose to go dating with anne...but she say she was tired when reach home..alright..another lonely day for engsing..later afternoon geokteng called me..suppose to date me but by the time i get done with everything she have left..so i didnt date her..so date yanwei for dinner at 209 -.- i went there..saw jasmin,jiesi,geokteng,michelle..and alot la..but didnt saw yanwei -.- a few minutes i reach geokteng left with a guy =x so had dinner with jasmin and jiesi..saw school teacher,anyways she dun teach me..so she ask me have i been studying..i say no hopeless liao..she say why must give up hope..she also got say wha..u got so many friends ar..i was like..isit..only a few very good de..later i ate something very light..so both of them offer help..i just say eating dun talk..that all..later chenpei came..she go dating with someone else..while i gave her chance to say her excuess why she wanna lie..anyways cant be bothered nowadays kids..why fighting and smoking is good for them? -.- later..suppose to watch worldcup with yanwei,samual,nicholas,joshua,huiqi,huihui..but walk walk around also never watch anyways not very intrested..thursday 15 june was just sucks..


12:33 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Thursday, June 15, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

14 june
somebody birthday..after work at 10 had dinner..beehoon mee with lots of pepper -.- so this birthday girl pass the cake to the auntie and another for me..was chocolate cake -.- was like should i eat..so i asked captains and aunties whether they wanted..in the end..i ate it..was kinda sweet but..eat it with force =x went to collect the bill for the table..so after collecting i asked..was it your birthday today,about the cake..thanks and i wish her happy always..smile and left the table..she look kinda happy and cheerful..went home with bus..had the same bus with the group of friends..nothing happen..anyways happy birthday
while today alot people offer me things..the auntie gave me coconut and wife's biscuit..i didnt take it..she had the not happy face..then later the satay uncle gave me sweet..while he place it on my hand while i had to take the change back...so i got no excuess of not taking..so i took it..later the pub's boss gave me curry puff..i shake my heads again..he say why paiseh arr..
while i didnt want to take people offers is like..kinda bu hao yi si..and people may say bu yao lian..anyways that reminds me that went the trip to airport u offer me twistis i didnt take..cause i afraid of dehydration..but i should take it..so i can sit beside u for that moment so u wont get bored for the whole trip..and seems unhappy..sorry for that =(


1:06 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

Horoscope for June 14, 2006
Virgo (August 23 - September 22)
Your mind is taking on some psychic powers! The person you've been so often (and so ardently) thinking about has been picking up on your vibes -- and is thinking about you too. Now isn't the right time to move forward with this relationship, but take note of their change in attitude toward you. There may be some conspicuous avoidance on their part -- could they be shy? Go slowly with this, and make it clear that you just want to get to know them a little better -- for now.


4:09 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

what can make me sad is , u pretend duno me i pretend duno u
until now i found out that love u and dun love u is cannot pretence de
when u keep laughing or smiling or let say lol-ing i not sure whether is fake or real, how i wish that real and u keep smiling away i dun ming getting fool for the moment but for u to happy..i duno why i choose to do that, people may think it stupid..but i think it not..dun pretence..


3:29 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

time flies now it getting to the end of week 3 de holiday..school starts soon..i dun wish to go back,cause when i go back i going to know my future..and it not the answer i wanted..i guessed 10 years later must prepare to become a begger sitting down at orchard road begging for money -.- by then my dreams has been throw into the dustbin,cause i cant even afford to raise myself what more my future wife or kids...


3:13 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

was watching dramas the past few hours..cause sis back home so she had to use her labtop and play her maplestory -.- anyways channel 8 7oclock show..was nice..but really hate those people..who done wrong and wont want admit..and have to say sorry..thinking that they dun need..but love the touching part..see how the stepmother so perserver just to make the child accept her..while the show also say how reduce stress 1st is by eating dark chocolates..no wonder i will get so streessed,cause i hate chocolates,let rest dark chocolates..but it was funny..females usually will have stress due to their monthly loss of blood..say feeding chocolates is require no wonder most females love chocolates..anyways they have to be aware that eating too much will cause fats=X 2nd is to take a deep breath and move into water..while i can hold long breath but i dislike water..anyways think i dun have to use any method..cause it like...dnt is already a major problem..and i dun intend to go back to do..cause this N lvl examination determine my future..i have to lives even the results is negative or positive..then later watched channel u 10 oclcok show..da changjin..that guy sacrifice everything just for her..while i can do that too..but who will let me do it?
boonkhin can u stop lol-ing..but dun stop smiling..dun erase the sweet smile u have =)


11:31 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

while computer spoilt also affects my life...cant get to communicate with people is 1 major problem.but there are lots of problems affecting..example cant get good sleep..earlier on didnt get to sleep when i offline at 12 plus..so talk to anne after a shower,talked from 1 plus to 2 plus..was thinking of sleeping..so stare at the ceiling then chenpei called me..so we talked till 2 plus till 3 plus..while too bad she have to wake up at 8am the next morning..so didnt hold her for long..both have problems with relationships..while what can i say,i am good at it..really cause i see and experience? too many situations before..and..i also learned not commit the same mistakes again and again..while i also say a very long story about mistakes to chenpei..is like life is so..troublesome? we cant satisfy every soul on the world..and human are selfish..while it really a long story..when i free i write here..while wake up at 7am today..but was boring on radio..wake up again at 9..while think i dun have enough sleep and is bored..so sleep again..till i wake up at..2 plus..so on computer ...no musics at all my life is so ..bored..no dates..no outings..i am just like in jail..anyways praying tomorrow will be a better day..saw something intresting..and my eyes cant get that picture off =D


4:07 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

i am bored during summer..cause summer rains -.- and computer spoilt 1 less comunication de device anyways can communicate with me through handphone a message will do and i will love it...date me if possible cause i hate staring at the ceilings at home..


12:32 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Monday, June 12, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

12june
today my mother birthday..while i wake up late again..made two red eggs for my mother..hahas..i dirty my hands..cause the colouring stains..anyways later watched the omen with zijing and nicholas..kinda boring..but was shocked by those shocking scene..and some parts was touching..poor family..found out my computer de motherboard spoilt..it cost 500 plus dollars to get repair..my sis hide her labtop actually this morning..but she let me use now hahas..=D thanks if not i be die of boredem...
11 june
watch aviva woman single finials,that player from france looks and skills not bad
was raining suppose not working,but they ask me go and help..after work talk with joshua remington and jeremy..take taxi home again..while it $8.10 but i gave the driver $9 he work for 17hours so i ask him to keep the change just to be a kind soul..=x
10 june
lonely engsing so lonely he had nobody his on his own lalala~
desmond treat taxi...hahas~leg pain~ didnt use medicated oil already..hope i can recover soon
9 june
the rain is big early in the morning sleep till quite late didnt go for dnt..problem happen at my computer,drink 3 cans of coffee just to work till 2am...the day world cup starts...germany and costarica..i win 1 dollar from joshua..haha..reach home at 3am..when sleeping..at around 6 plus my neighbour burn the paper..then got smoke..my whole house is full of smoke..pissed by their actions..but it the fifteen of the month in the chinese calendar so ignore and sleep..cause tomorrow i still have to work till 2am


11:47 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Thursday, June 08, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today went for dnt..while was not very glad..cause alot of effort that has been done..on that material..is suppose to discard -.- waste my effort of getting cut and burn.. told my teacher can i come back..and do when school reopens so i wont get to join the class..he say you came during the holidays to do why should i punish u..then i told him..but what if i cant complete..he just say u can complete de..cant be bothered think tomorrow not going for dnt..i find its a waste of my time.. he keep saying i dun understand why u will have such thinking..then say why msut i make my artefact so complicated so perfect..is like..that will satisfy and improve people lifes..that what a designer suppose to do? was he still continued and i dun understand why u dun want to go to class is like other subject is more important then dnt..then i told him..even if what i do i will fail my N level..is like my mid-year results shows..then he say u havent fight the battle say u lose..u surrender..while as for that no one will understand waht i want? i want a good future..even i passed N i will fail O in the end i waste so much time on just a diploma..or maybe just a cert..is like..i will cause my family to suffer..agrh...things happen agains?
was budget..so eat cheap food..went to my house nearby de new renovated de coffeeshop..while that person..was like so good? ask me sit down and wait..then later say sorry arr make u wait so long ...lol..anyways was not full la..hungry now~ watched channel 8 de dramas...7 oclcok and now watching 9 oclock de..i didnt know i can eventually get so into the show..was pissed with those bad guys..and admire those ..loving couples..how sweet..wish i could have good memories too..hehe x)


9:01 PM

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we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

that was my first time seeing u getting so faustrated and u still can talk calmly to me..i just dun wish to see people drown and die in the pool..although i duno how to swim..but i will still save them..provided i can..while for that situation..it alright..she will be soon awake..and sort out her things..and for me..dun worry..i quite happy right now..so should be alright..i know if i duno how to swim and i still save people in the pool i will die too..i clear on what i am doing..and i am also very clear that i know what you are trying to tell me =D
had been sleeping very late..these few days..kinda tired..agrh..when my leg will get to recover.on friday and saturday have to work from 6pm-2am..and i skip some dnt..this week due to..dun want to go..hope i can really finish..the most when school re-opens i shall sit outside the HOD room and complete? just like those people from last year class..lol.
thanks boonkhin =D


10:57 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

was so called edited..due to errors on blogger..i written the first one better..but some i forgotten..so this is the edited de..hope it has the same effect as before~
was talking to nigu..about vicki's birthday celebration..while i dun enjoy it at all..her friend insulted me -.- cause i bought cotten wool for her, so the friend say must as well buy pad -.-
if i am a female i would..anyways i not giving her pad..
later talk to vicki..while i really pissed her off..i guess she is too angry that she dun even understand what i am tlaking ...is like i knew something and u just say i know nothing just because i dun experience what u suffering? while when i solve his/her problems i will look into his/her shoes..and find better solutions..may not be perfect one..but it will be the best solution..if not there still a solution..anyways past few days before her birthday she was already like so moody..and on 4th june her blog written something about this particular guy..i duno who..but..it like shes so devoted? i never see her..like this before is like a brave girl can eventually...anyways..total no offence..it not that i want to budge into your life..but as a friend i just cant bear to see you suffers..cause the moment i saw it..i suffers too..
while stop saying if not tears may drop =/
sandra agrees about what i said..about she and her boyfriend will only lasts for 6 months..i know it not right to say such a thing..but so..she came to me and say i am right..because it hard to have a boyfriend in the same class,and do things again and again..couples comes and goes...maybe they just dun understand the word love..i may not understand too..but i am creating my own love just for you..for someone special.. sweet~
i love you, you love me?
<3<3<3<3<3_<3<3<3
<3<3<3<3_<3<3<3<3


1:41 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKI!! went to celebrate for her -.- she told me at far east plaza but when i reach they at cineleisure -.- nevermind..bought cotten wool for her..special right..but her friend say ..must as well by pad -.- i bought cotten wool not for that lor..is because she wanted a cuhsion mah.. cannot just buy and give..not special enough..so buy cotten wool lor..but i reached quite late..so they go early..so went to play pool with desmond -.- told him i noob at it..he keep give in to me..anyways i suck at pool..later reach home..my legs are sour..hungry too..
many people sick now..my mama..she come home and she vomitted..i helped her mop the floor buy her lunch before i go out..zoelyn also sick..keep playing computer, sleep late la..now all u have to do is drink more water,play less computer and rest more =x


10:30 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today is 06/06/06 a perfect day for couples? cause 6 xia lai (dun leave your partner) bu yao 6 lei (dun drop your tears) = be happy and lastly..6 xia mei hao de huai yi (leave the good memories in your heart and mind..and the bad memories wash away) hah~ romantic bah=X
agrhh..had an injured leg..but today i missed 403..so i run into pasirris park..i took 5 minutes from elias..hahas was happy? but sweating like crazy~ my leg although i can jump walk run...but the swallon is still there...kinda of slight pain..when i move too much..my leg are getting sour..think stand too long..hope i can get a good rest tonight..
anyways tomorrow is vicki birthday~ wonder will she invite me..and..tml also got dnt..if she date me..i will skip? shall see bah..anyways got an idea of her present but didnt buy =x


11:57 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today wake up alot of times..but when back sleep..in the end still managed to go school..for dnt..so took 28 "early" in the morning..then stop at this particular bus stop..there this lady and a teenager, that lady keep scolding that teenager i thought they are mother and daughter..so i thought that daughter..do something wrong..in the end..they duno each other..suddently that lady come to her and slap her and say SCOLD ME WHAT? SCOLD ME FUCK YOU..then she whack several times..then later she say FUCK YOU, YOU GO FUCK YOURSELF FIRST then she say to the a man behind her..say that girl i was standing at the bus stop then she say..dun block my way..then she keep saying that teenager this kind of attitude..lol everybody in the bus was looking at the incident..taht girl was bold..she continue mumbling..i duno what she mumble..but i guess is something bad about the lady..later on..she talking on the phone.,.cursing that lady i think...she talk till the bus stop i come down..then she punch the sit infront of her..ahyo..taht was really bad? nothing better to do go offend people...
then went for dnt..my things are missing..went around searching..doom it gone..so i sit down and wait for my teacher to come..he put down my phone -.- when i reach him..later i found myself..it was hiding at a corner..so i continued..dots..i break that wood again..i broke once already now twice -.- had to fix it..in the end..help and talk to zoelyn..hope she gets waht i trying to say..anyways..boonkhin you are not violent..is that lady who slap that girl is violent..pray that you wont be like taht girl=x


5:18 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

missed superband..but didnt miss the result at the last moment..finally xia ri feng out..anyways not going to miss the repeat of superband at saturday~ yesterday 5th june was working...there this lady...give me difficulties..i still remember how she look like and waht she order..she told me fried rice 1 plate,small one,dun add pepper cause children eat one..so i ask the captian to write down the order..in the end..she disappeared when i bring the dishes there -.- luckily there someone who order fried rice..reach home quite late..12?
there school later..i going to force myself to wake up at 6.45am
was playing gunbound with boonkhin again..lol..dun so violent la..female must be fermine mah =p and also sleep early..if not u will become panda =x
had serious connection problem...due to sis new labtop then change the modem to wireless de..dun even know the connection..how it detects -.- zZzZzZ tireds


2:18 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Monday, June 05, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

went cutting hair..a female lady cut for me..while her looks not bad..usually after cutting..they will ask whether want to put gel..i dun like gel,so wont want to put..but that lady without asking and she to put..while not first time went there cut..but it first time applying gel..while dun have alot effect..but the smell is nice..a mixture of apple and aloevera? or peach..lol..then when payment they will ask u study waht and determine the price..i said i am a secondary school student she stun -.- do i look so old..there people even say i look like sec 3 or even sec 1 -.-
anyways..had to go to work later..
didnt go for dnt..cause i 11 plus wake up...was late alot..anyways cant be bothered..


4:45 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

i thought i wont get to have any fun ...or might just suffer the whole day..but u bring me laugher..talking to chenpei over the phone at 1 plus helping her to solve her problems..and talk to her to keep her calm..later play gunbound with boonkhin..was funny,but shes violent..anyways..at least early in the morning,i had enough fun..
later at in between 8-9 must go school for dnt..then at in between 4-5 must go work..
gosh! think i going for a haircut..wonder should cut layer or spike...and should i keep it short? deciding...


4:15 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Sunday, June 04, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

sister got new labtop..therefore computer is mine..from next week..i am going to be busy..school dnt..work...plus..datings? there are so many dramas i want to watch..channel 8 7pm & 9pm channel U 7pm 8pm 10pm ..so many timeslots for shows..drama and variety shows...i want watch but working..so cannot..going to miss those shows..today when to library borrow books..i borrow 2..1 chinese 1 english..hope i be able to read finish before..25 june..the date due..tml is a quite tight de schedule..8 plus-1 plus..2 plus - 3? 5plus - 11plus or 12 midnight..wish me luck~


11:08 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

practice "swordplay" with my plastic sword -.- still like a small kid..cant be bothered also..think i injured my leg again..cause it aching now..anyways..something pissed me off...hates people who harm me..and delete me in any contact..if u want to delete than dun add if not dun accept..
anyways was happy that you talk to me..although was kinda not expected..but i expect the unexpected lol..now i just fear..we will seperate.the way you tag you seems to be unhappy
sandra is attached =X happy for her..but i make her angry..due to my pessimistic actions..anyways those words may hurts but taht the truth..anyways good luck for your tomorrow breakfast lor..
talking facts seems to be useless..1 action YOU done wrong i shall use violence..so SHUT UP!!
stab you with my sword..and see your blood drips..


1:05 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

went back to work...although my leg not yet fully recover..i still have to work..i think my leg getting worst..the pain is there..and everytime i apply oil its getting more painful..but i am able to stand jump run..anyways..was kind of happy..the people there are caring..and funny..miss them lots when the days i was at home..customers' today..no one shows attitude..plus lots of pretty girls=X sunday is boring i guess..no one dates me..anyways next week is going to be hard time for me..have to go school for dnt and work..wednesday is vicki's birthday..how am i going to go without a present?
when i am talking..i talked about her..i know her name and seems to know everything..but i duno anything about her..


12:27 AM

it continues to stain, why?.

Saturday, June 03, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

12noon then wake up..watching ghost show yesterday night..despite the fear..i dare myself to watch..but dun get to see the whole show..starting i watch with fear..but later i just stare those scary images..like nothing happen..lol..was using computer..chatting with muiltiple online peoples..and searching for blogskin..actually found one..but..it was messy..so i change it again..
thanks zoelyn for helping me.. you rocks =)
many things i thought i know actually i duno...example people lies..actually there more lies..that i cannot believe myself..such things will happen..and also about friendship..i never expect any mistakes in such things..but around 1am..things dun turn sucessful..it kinda like arguement?
i admit i duno u well..that why i wanting to know more about you..so you may have waht u wanted? or maybe we were just better as not knowing each other..
i want to watch movie..many movies are waiting for me to catch..who want to date me out=X


1:12 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Friday, June 02, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

made someone happy ealier on..was happy to see your smile..even your fake smile..i know you are viewing so i purposely write it...anyways..have no idea so thought of that..u may find boring..but i hope it helps..=D
keep blasting this song..so love it..from the moment i hear it
jolin 蔡依林
Mr.Q
说你愿意为了我幸福开始吃素
放弃森林好好只照顾一棵树木
我的付出一辈子都不会辜负
所有害怕从此有你拔刀相助
hey u,mr.q 爱你耍q的指数
电流像瀑布好像重力加速度
你又杀又无辜
与生俱来的功夫
加快脚步要加入连署


6:43 PM

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we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

suffers in school today..just to bend a thick PVC tube..waste me so much time..and had fear of heat..palms are all reds..went home at 4 plus..cause intend to sell icecream for $$ and because i am very tired..made a fake sword for myself..using all the waste material..lol..still a kid playing with stuffs..next week still have to come back to school..i still had alot to be done..plus..my folio is like empty without..any details..now radio is equal part of my life..i been listening all the time =D
while heating the tube i do alot of thinking..my friendship with you is just like molecular structure of a gas..molecules moving freely and far apart..heat is something taht cause the seperation..but when we suffer the freezing together..we form solid again..but before than..we have to condense and turn to liquid before we form solid..
tireds~


5:29 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

Thursday, June 01, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

OMG..how will u feel if people lied to you..many times.?
a person eventually lied to me? saying weird stuff...taking bus, passing by lots of places equal going alot of places? and why being so secretive..i am NOT THINKING TOO MUCH...i dun think equal i dun plan...i dun plan equal i get cheated..example lies..still not enough the sitaution is different..waht more lies u still want to say..
people tell lies either to getaway from situation or dun want to get me hurt..
i dun think u are getting away from situation...neither get me hurt..cause..u lie i feel more hurt..
anyways..waht the point to keep crapping and shout everything i want here..i still have to solve it but how? and i didnt expect u to tell lies to your best friend in school too..
the moment when u so call lied to me ..u ask me am i telling lies taht time...that moment i find u are cute..and thought u wont lie..but u lie..and u may lie to me..
in this world..it suffering to survive? i am suffering..hope things does not happen waht i thought it was..but when i know this bad news? i had a bad feeling deep down my heart..is feeling of fear..and..duno how to describe..
i also fear lots of things..out friendships..or maybe relationship..it all something i must build it strong..to reach my dream..
strong attraction of force inbetween solids..is waht i want in any friendships or relationships > so we be able..to face everything together?
elements steals electrons to become noble..just like people want to be noble..they tends to ..get waht they wanted..and throw away waht they not wanted..just for themselves..
human are selfish ~
too stress over dnt projects , people problems , my own problems , money problems..and lots more? which i may not know...


11:01 PM

it continues to stain, why?.

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today wake up at 8 plus..intend to sleep longer..but suppose to reach school at 9..nevermind..i reach school at 9 plus...see no one..no key..no work..i waited..till got key..sit down also do nothing was tired so continue sleep..at 11 plus then i start working my artefact..cut myself..the blood is gross..anyways suppose to go at 5..but they like want to go home..so 3 plus go liao..when walking out of the school saw zoelyn..lol didnt say hi but got smile,it still friendly =X...went to bedok interchange to purchase june bus concession..then went alone to the coffee shop and eat mutton soup..so long didnt eat good food at coffee shop already..walk back to take bus 31 to meet sandra outside her school...then saw this begger..sitting at wheelchair..selling tissue paper..guess what he is holding sony ericsson k750i on the hand -.- even a begger is richer than me..dots..went to century square to look out for adidas bag..but so little design so cannot make up my mind..so went to tampines mall de mini toons..i bought a voodoo doll for myself..hahas to protect me from the evil..=P sound like small kid...anyways thanks sandra..=)


6:49 PM

it continues to stain, why?.