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WHO
[x] tanENGSING
[x] SEVENTEEN
[x] VIRGO
[x] SINGLE
[x] PERFECTIONIST
" Don't worry la. Even if you not coming back to ______, I still want you as a friend right!! So I'll still keep in contact with you " i know deep inside, you probably got hurt. i am too, the distance that keep dragging. its way too long that i didnt realise how long it has been. out of the 23000? only 1 managed to do so.. this is something you get, without really asking for.. i was prepared to go, dressed up and ready, but i refuse to go, due to whatever reason. was supposed to go school to do my incomplete work, but was delayed because i wanted to post this important message, because u dun get them everyday..and to experience a touched, is not something you would also get from everyday. maybe she's the one.. 1B 2L 3T, was drank to the fullest and pee out to the fullest too. 24 date, was partially ruined, maybe a complete ruined today, as for the chilli, ee so disgusting.. this year was shit, i seriously didnt want to work on christmas, despite the double pay.. lastly, thank you joo..
3:03 PM
it continues to stain, why?.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
Peace - Toshihiko Sahashi ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: follow ur heart la ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: if u think its ncie ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: nice ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: then let it be ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: if not ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: forget it
ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: but it doesnt mean its bad ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: just that ur idea somewhat is unique ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: and and ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: the ur audience might not be able to accept it now ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ?! says: doesnt mean they will never accept it forever
shes being supportive to me, to bad shes say i'm not her cup of tea, but shes a good girlfriend material. she erase those rejections/nasty words to make me do it..even it was my first time doing it. however even the item was done, the date might fail because it falls on a popular date, and i am not the only one asking. kbox in the morning, movie during the day, and songs at the sea till night. its already 99% complete, just left the 1% and thats you. if i fail the cruse still exsit, if i got it, i break the cruse together wiht you. was screened by P, S19,E18,J17 & B16 so B saw 2P throw his pack, and remain calm, lame P thought B hiding something, trying to hide embarassment blame J hiding it.. use torchlight to search somemore sia, wallet nand a 2 dollar note need to hide? eh P u stupid? ask, age, ask sch ask like everything, ask S parents name -.- and contact number.. i am not a robot, can u repeat. E help S repeat but P want S to repeat herself -.- wtt ended up ask E, J and B but J refuse to give, an arugment started, and that P was so lame, like seriously.. end up we was free from that place, and it was just a spotcheck not a warning, u think waht, u fliming show ar -.- afterwards i went home and open the letterbox and i got the letter of the fined -.- wth december was -.- i failed P1, get fined, get screened. spent lots of money, no time to plan christmas outing? and no time to work.. and soon u will go and i have to bid goodbye? christmas eve was my chance, backup planned 23 dec..
Prologue - Toshihiko Sahashi 22 dec, joo and vong birthday 23 dec, jac birthday hope to finsih P1 by 19 dec, 3 more days. lastly i must date someone at least for christmas and i will..i wnat to end this year well, well enough so i could start a new year together with you..
State of the Future - Toshihiko Sahashi and i duno if u still remember that i've said, even if the sky drop down i think we'll still be friends.. but i duno are we still, from that day when u lent me your stuffs, its never as warm as before.. i duno what will really happened to me in the next few years, i might think i wish to die, i want a girlfriend, or maybe more money to travel.. japan is a must! i duno what others think, but i am not independent, i also know i am not a hero too.. why would i continue in design school, is because i want to design my own home in terms of the people to the interior of the home to the exterior and to the people. and not to be the ace student or wahtever, i need everyone to help me with this too.
2nd dec, it wasnt my day.. i planned to go school early and go to work in the afternoon, so as i do not have to go early to school on wednesday to complete my model, but i fail, as i couldnt wake up and the alarm didnt wake me up. my world seems to switch the other way round, its been awhile since i see the sunrise.. so i decided to walk to work early, so i could eat.. who knows, i thought i wouldnt be so lucky, but i got caught and fined for jay-walking-.- am i lucky or waht? so later, i do cashier and didnt eat -.- and i thought i could just slack there and supervise wk, who was the cashier trainee for the day.. but i got news from others that it would be his last day today. it happened too sudden, too quickly.. i asked whats the reason, and he told me something else, well.. he said i am good to realise it was a lie tho.. and he thanked me alot throughout this journey working.. although i didnt teach him everything i got but i am thankful to taught him something.. it was really sad, so sad that its probably the first time i am so .. i mean somethin to a guy, not that i am gay...but maybe we interact as if we are real brothers.. so i drank tiger responsibly, and treat liquor.. but he didnt join, and whats shock me was, we are actually neighbours, as in we live 2,3 blocks away.. to be exact its just next to it.. we could have go to work, and go home together.. zm too.. small world. thank goodness i was there for his last day, if not i wouldnt know what to do, besides he did this becasue of his girlfriend.. and obviously he's not happy, noble? i dare say he's good, he got plans for the future, scholarship for 4 consecutive years and had a beautiful girlfriend, with a chio figure.. what more does he lack.. i really wish i would have a girlfriend who will be so worried about me while working, and didnt want me to work due to the hardship or rather stay by my side or maybe also wait for me after i finish my work and we walk home holding hands..till the next time.. as for c, too cheap le la, but i always believe i could help her, and i want to help her..but i am so afraid shes beyond help, and this post is getting long... but who cares. i wont get the Q for lj? maybe.. i enjoy sharing the cake with you.. maybe i wouldnt have the same taste again if i ate that cake.. and sorry peeps for not going school for like so long..hope i didnt create additional worries.. till then.
3:20 AM
it continues to stain, why?.
Monday, December 01, 2008
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
in this
there's a
not you la -.- i shouldnt have come, shouldnt have help, shouldnt ended up getting wet, getting cut, shouldnt have bleed for your sake. ass my instinct told me, i should help you, but i think you dun deserve it or but fate also didnt allow to let me know any information for me to further investigate, what worse, i saw the lie, the lie u had. its like i am the target and u use the and shot me.. if it's not
i wouldnt even want to know you. i make myself ashamed about that instinct.. oo, and i saw this lie, good for you la, and whatever lies that was hidden, its the truth, and whatever truth is hidden, its the lie. so only
while listening to
i
and if you can break the code i am coming with, although its not G writing (gokudera writing) check out the lyrics if you want, translation from japanese to english, and you get an in depth of what this post is really about... after all i thought i could broke that 4.5 years cruse, i still lose to reality.. and maybe even lose to you. the code you gave me, 1624643572346 how should i remember.. you will help me right? maybe i should learn how to enjoy my single life.. and i nearly lost everything that i've got..
