Thursday, May 31, 2007
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
it been a while since.. my head is heavier than my feet, i fall sick this time. it was at that time during study camp.. think i was dehydrated that cause the sickness. no food in canteen plus drinks can be expensive if u buy alot. i wonder how did you survive? study camp held in school, only sit in the hall for geography, row 3 8th row. only a few words that you speak to me, give me back this feeling.. that why you are name that..
9:37 PM
it continues to stain, why?.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
after june, banding extra lessons.june study campmother tongue intensivei got this feel of getting killed. i finished chinese Os but was quite a nonsense paper -.- it my first time so panic, didnt completed, and complain so much %#@$!@ anyways it over =/i am now like converting myself into a full time student. do u know how tired it is... i had to keep lying to myself about fighting for my dreams..headaches, headaches... quite alot of interesting happened. no time to type it down or i totally forgotton them, all i remember is ... it cool =/4 months countdown for my preparation of Os. seriously speaking i did nothing, but somehow all these programs make me feel like i have done something but it never enough! i wonder how am i going to survive my remaining 4 months by :
- completing dnt folio and artefact by june holiday
- able to score distinction for chinese oral and listening comprehension.
- master physics and chemistry technique
- complete maths syllabus
- master the techinque of answering geography and social studies questions
- lastly do well for english!
one of the in-vi-g-la-tor during chinese Os was super !! super !! beautiful. wha seh... tho i say i didnt complete my paper, but i was focusing doing it okay.. i only take a look during before and after paper and also when she check my IC number.. lol -.- i just attracted to her beauty not a pervert looking whatever -.- but she's really pretty, not only i agree to that =p
people got so many definition to relationship, i got another one for myself. e.g people would say what both must move together la, if not 1 is stone the relationship wont move.. that like so brief.. mine more interesting, i guessed. relationship is like the ring u wear on your finger. when u are young, u dun wear rings right?.. especially your finger are like so skinny, it hard to find the correct size and often easy to be removed.. or u will face people like teachers or parents which would ask u to remove... take a look at this picture, the continous action of removing and putting on.. like a started relationship, will often broken off or patched back or conflicts and resolutions. a wedding ring is different.. if both partners are faithful, u wouldnt remove the ring right?...this is where the roots are rooted to the ground =p
alright i know it nonsense, but let me think of something to divert my accumulating stressed which weighs alot tonnes!! TONNES!
i dun have june holidays !!
same length of upper and lower eye lashes girl. (suoegrog)
6:14 PM
it continues to stain, why?.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
goodness! last to know and first to fall =/ anglican high has pretty girls !! is really beautiful.. even had eye contact with one of the girls this morning.. tuesday was nonsense, despite there is papers on wednesday i worked till 12, not just this, i duno waht took them so long to get ready to take the transport home.. i skipped that and took a cab -.- spend me quite a sum, plus make me so bu shuang with that uncle for not trusting me and talking rubbish and judge me for waht i am -.- go work = spend lots of money meh... eh i have so much to pay for la -.- wednesday, kinda fall asleep during paper... i actually rest before the paper starts, the DM go poke the pen in my ear -.- he said exams..i nodd and he walked away.. wah seh~ lie down and rest only leh, paper also not yet start -.- had steamboat with cell group. sacastic man, want be joker go to circus la... dun joke liao but actually critizing me. maybe i think too much -.- but it seems like it was on purpose. dun be so smug, that person was just young and innocent to accept it. enjoy animation for the past 3 days... it about romance during middle school to high school la...some parts are super touching la...in the events of the 'pull up confession', christmas, valentine day, white day and those chrachters birthdays and also when they need each other for support.. i always wanted experience such events la... recieving chocolates on valentine day and giving my dearest sweets on white day..be there for dearest, celebrate events together etc.. the 'pull up confession' is really something... is really great.. hahas..* wu yue de tian, gang dan sheng de xia tian, wo men zhi jian, cai wan cheng de ai lian, jing wo de shou li mian, you hao dou ming tian.~ wu yue de tian, meng kai shi yao xian yan, qian fang wan yan, yi chang chuan de xing yuan, wo men yi tian yi tian, man man shi xian.~
1:29 AM
it continues to stain, why?.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
hate people with arrogance -.- yucks!hypocrite! *learn to accept people but not approving their bad ways =/been trying so hard.. *my oldself is consuming me -.-
12:14 AM
it continues to stain, why?.
Friday, May 11, 2007
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
early morning, the wind is as strong as the fan on to the max and blow it right in front of me! mother complain and say, quickly wake up.. raining heavily soon! as usual, lazy to get up from the bed -.- get done, and go for school for papers -.- carrying an umbrella with me, duh~ took bus with somebody, her voice is so cute la despite her person. really cute!past 3 days was so qiao to saw u over at the platform. it like same train, different cabin.. seems so faraway. today we were under an umbrella for awhile... "ji ki xio hor shua, hor never dua~"yesterday finally contact my so call long lost friend. was really lost the past few days la, so thinking of finding those people who helped me pick up myself. she told me, she attaching soon -.- so quick hor... another friend..say she love her boyfriend -.- yawns.. exams not done yet, but i am done soon -.-F9 for E maths -.-kids! you!i upsetted u, and i still expect u to smile for me =/broken tonns of promise..
12:21 PM
it continues to stain, why?.
Monday, May 07, 2007
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
when i stepped into the bus, darkness came upon my life... the lights on the streets seem darker than usual. i listen to my reciever, those songs was really suit me for that moment, blend to gether with the atmosphere. nono..darkness came upon when i left my house, upon bringing white chocolate, but was melting? so didnt bring it out..bus came immediately..unusual things seems to happen.. when you were there, i didnt notice.. and came upon to say hi, was the wrong timing =/ you are not the only one who tear.. forgotten! it was at the cinema.. was dark, u know? duh! spiderman was consume by that dark liquid substance -.- 'spiderman need helps too' goodness sake, u need help too. seriously, darkness came upon weeks ago... when you were dreaming, you wont even notice waht you are doing..or what the story is talkin about.. when i saw that scene, i thought i was dreaming... although i heard it before, i thought i was just a rumour.. but that time that i saw, behind me was voices about the scene, it was like so perfectly done, such a way that... i was not a dream, but real.. right before my eyes. nono, it was that raining morning, the sky suppose to be bright, but i was dark covered with thick dark clouds.. i was holding a black umbrella, as if i am attending a funeral. =/ no, it was that day when i was at home, sleeping without attending school...dreams keep appearing in my mind.. what is going on? actually it was the delay.. delay.alright, i have to admit i am bo liao to write stuffs like this, but you cant blame me, cause i couldnt sleep for the past 2 and a half hours... was flipping around for 1 and a half hours. =/was sick yesterday? stomach flu? i duno? feel like puke-ing out something but nothing.. was warm in the body, could not eat much food. even tears are warm -.- can u imagine how hot my body was?when a girl/lady/woman was in a bad mood and throw tempers or could not control their emotions, they usually aware cause they have the monthly thingy, and guys tends to 'qian jiu'but when a boy/guy/man was in a bad mood, does he know? does those ladies 'qian jiu' them? understand and forgive? alright they are not always bad,after all... they have to suffer the in-describe-able pain when they were in labour..goodness, zinc was once a flirt, i cant conclude his future.. but at least he is no longer flirt now.. he had a girlfriend recently, tho i thought things wont go well, actually it doesnot go so well, but they came across it.. and u know what, they super got 'mo qi' really! you have to be there to witness, envy them of course.last thing, some people? could still sleep when people are worried?. but me, couldnt sleep for a reason. does that means they were irresponsible? or cant be bothered? or are not even aware of it?tho i told myself wont hold my breath, a part of me was dying, there is nothing left for me to do now,but give in. if you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling, i would sing to you and tell you' i wont live my life without you. if you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling, i would hold your hand, and look in your eyes and u know i'd never let u go. - never let you go - janice. was actually cantonese version.
2:14 AM
it continues to stain, why?.
