i know the cruse is on going, but that's not gonna stop me from pursuing.. despite that i know i have lost from the start.. i keep thinking there's a way that i could get it, that i could break that cruse.. but i guessed it just hanging over there. so what if i get to indirectly waved at her? that would be the most happiest moment within these few years even if she had a crush at someone else.
traditional mindset caught me in a dilemma this dinner.. a treat from a female, is a must to avoid from a male. touched words were spoken, that add flavouring to the wings. it's the first time i had such cheap and nice cooked salmon and meatballs. i have to stop, however i want this to keep happening..
money management is a crucial skills i need to redevelop. transport and entertainment for reducing stress was the highest spending rate, followed by food then assignment.. when normally its the opposite. if the rate of coming across with those forgetful, ingrateful kids, would switch with my eye candy. i would probably the happiest guy in the world. i used to know what i want in this world, what i wanna be in the future, what i planned for in the future... but i guessed its no longer important, because i think i forgotten.
at least i goes to school with a willing heart, so far..

3:02 AM
it continues to stain, why?.