i know the cruse is on going, but that's not gonna stop me from pursuing.. despite that i know i have lost from the start.. i keep thinking there's a way that i could get it, that i could break that cruse.. but i guessed it just hanging over there. so what if i get to indirectly waved at her? that would be the most happiest moment within these few years even if she had a crush at someone else.
traditional mindset caught me in a dilemma this dinner.. a treat from a female, is a must to avoid from a male. touched words were spoken, that add flavouring to the wings. it's the first time i had such cheap and nice cooked salmon and meatballs. i have to stop, however i want this to keep happening..
money management is a crucial skills i need to redevelop. transport and entertainment for reducing stress was the highest spending rate, followed by food then assignment.. when normally its the opposite. if the rate of coming across with those forgetful, ingrateful kids, would switch with my eye candy. i would probably the happiest guy in the world. i used to know what i want in this world, what i wanna be in the future, what i planned for in the future... but i guessed its no longer important, because i think i forgotten.
at least i goes to school with a willing heart, so far..

3:02 AM
it continues to stain, why?.

again - YUI

fragile human eh? but i am thankful that i was being told, before u are gone in my world. and damnit, you should be grateful that u have such a nice kanojo, feel insecure? bowlshit please... her confirmation, her decision, her priorty are on you, you and you... you should have much more confidence on her, instead of worrying on the shit...are you not grown up yet? i need confidence for assurance, and yet i couldnt... but you could, so why are u feeling more despair compared to me? move, susume.. the world ahead with the two of you would be great, if u use it the right way.. well, i could be a stranger to you... but talking like that sounds kinda rude.. but since i was compensate i guessed u are forgiven unless u did something, which u shouldnt..then u have a price to pay...but i doubt i will be told about it. since its sayonara, its farewell.. different people have different limit of patience.. i guessed mine is about 6 months.. but i do saw 4 years example.. at least acknowledge the effort.. as time goes down the road, due to my photographic memory i would give the shocking face still..but to some, i was just an ordinary person that fit into the crowd. i can see the love that u put in... that you would do anything for him.. well thats great but do not fall in to traps taht he set.. protect yourself first.. fantasy love do not exist anymore in this damn shit practical world.. well similar things happen to belinda too, letting her go was the only decision that i could think of, is right.. and something similar almost happened onto irene..but i am not so dumb to fall into the trap twice right? i wonder what god want me to learn this time... being protective is alright, but not over protective you nut.


Share the World (preview) - Dong Bang Shin Ki


Cagayake!GIRLS - Sakurakou K-ON Bu


Dont say "lazy" - Sakurakou K-ON Bu

no more "pat on your head, anymore.

4:03 PM
it continues to stain, why?.