i seriously thank God, for letting me witness that scene. one way to tell me an answer, another to get out of this troubling thingy and also found a reason to hate you. partially regretted to hate you, but it wasnt right for the opposite. just like you wont eat sweets with rice because both of them are sweet, and you bound not to taste either one of them. although up to now, i still dun get the reason as i am suppose to catch some sleep, and enjoy myself at johor later. in a way, i am really very sorry, sorry to those that believed in me, that i gave up so easily, sorry to those who hated me, hated means depart from my life. sorry to myself, ended up in this tragic scenario which shouldnt even exist. maybe you should put yourself in my shoes.. cause sometimes, you might be thinking alot. and you just suddenly come and ask me to search my heart etc... assuming that i know everything youre thinking and what not... BUT IN ACTUAL FACT, I DONT. so you leave me in confusion, you leave me thinking what the hell did i do to make you unhappy!? and hence my day always ends like this. okay, school was getting more and more worst. i believe my lectuerer doesnt even bother about my progress, not that i seek attention but to use your heart and feel the punch that would make you do better wasnt there. o shit, one day i should crack my head and see what does my brain look like =/ and open up my heart and see does it stain, cause you stabbed me without me bleeding.no wonder a tight slap wasnt enough. as usual, sailing against the vast ocean finding my support, at the same time, all i could be waiting was waht is ahead the horizon. paradise. 我们太相爱了, 如今我才明白爱有它自己的节拍
