just what am i thinking, to actually bid goodbye with you. the me who only ate 4 piece of bread and few crumble chips on 23 was nonsense.
i think i've gone too far, just because i dun want to love you, i actually did that. i know i am selfish, but i didnt want to deceive myself. i love you even you were just an illusion.
half of me was gone after that goodbye with a full stop. i am cheating, despite knowing that i have photographic memory and i cant forget you, i still want to make myself to forget you. hope that you are forgotten. am i selfish , was i rude? you wont give me an answer anymore, just because i said goodbye to you.

remember when i said the bus definition when u said something about love.
remember when i told you about the life i want to have.
remember when i elaborate all those acts that a boyfriend would do
remember when i want to cater you when you are sick
remember when i picture the sunset at the west ?
so? i cant even compare to an ex RI nor the whatever pro which got in the wahtever compertition and got top few in the world.
i think it takes two hands to clap? like whatever that's happening right now, or has happened before, it is the impact of both of you that led to what happens today
but maybe both of you were at fault? or it was nobody's fault, it just happens to happen this waysaid by a third person.
kristin's birthday and i didnt even wish her. what am i doing ! could you tell me?
shit i shouldnt ask for you anymore. please

12:35 AM
it continues to stain, why?.