Saturday, November 03, 2007
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
labouring is tough, giving birth is tougher, to raise a kid is even tougher. the pain that cannot be describe and felt by any men in this world. i might know alot of things about females and relationships, even people question me out of curiousity, why am i still single? i have to always smiled to them and said i duno. i always blamed on time, maybe its not the time. blame on other things, but i realise i am the one to blame. although i cant completely accept it, but i'm trying gradually. maturity will not occur in a blink of eye, experience too. i can be thoughtful, but i am careless at times too. went to have lunch with P at void deck. end up we played poker cards. so P decided to do a fortune telling on me about relationship, i agreed. the results were kinda nonsense? i only believed halfway as there is not logic explanation. you can say it's excuses but i prefer to live life this way.so O helped me out with SS later after P went home. eventually we didnt studied, instead we chat. naturally we chat about relationship, because i caught O red-handed and wanted to know the details. it's not what i expect, the happy ending. anyway O is strong and is not depressed about the imperfect. i duno why i suddently will say " shi ni de jiu shi ni de, bu shi ni de jiu bu shi ni de" so O says " if ni dun go try, it will never be ni de" 14/10: G says "u dun think u can or u dun want to try? dun always think that nobody will like u. must work towards your happiness" G & O. i understand you know? but things might not always happen the way i want it to be. people have choice, i cant force my way to find happiness right?one of my dream is to become a father, reason why, said before. anyway....... 看..月牙湾下的泪光在丝路之上被遗忘是谁的心啊孤单的留下他还好吗我多想爱他那永恒的泪那一句话也许可能蒸发是谁的爱啊又为谁降下轻声呼唤就让我融化那一滴雨水演化成我翅膀向着我爱的人追吧
4:19 PM
it continues to stain, why?.
