Tuesday, October 24, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
have you ever felt when u need someone..no one was there? i feeling that now.. it was like i really need someone be by my side, but there not a single soul. nobody will realise how painful the feeling of being alone was, besides those anti- social people. the pain that people/s ignores you, or judge you the way about your past it so hurtful that i cant even sense the pain already because i was like get used to it?. even though there is someone who said, she will "sui chuan sui dao" to me. but she will not come right away to me when i need her or somebody. I REALLY NEED YOU RIGHT NOW, YOU GET THE MESSAGE?last week, worked 6 days kinda tired. although i am like so used to the place, nothing was tough for me. besides some troublesome customers. this particular customer sound nasty but there is some logic la.. as i was collecting bills, while they are having their meals. it not a very good thing to do, but that the rule in the restraunt, because it an open restraunt and there are people who run away after they eat. so this customer said..just becasue some people do it, we are judge the same as those people. it the same, when some girls hate we guys, just because things happen unsucessfully in their broken relationships, with their brother silblings or with their male friends were bad. so we guys all had the same judgement by them, i believe most girls said, guys are all the same, they are none good.tui hou mv was so nice. besides hebe was pretty, the story was touching too. it tells me, dun do things that make u regret. jay says the last word before the mv ends" wo yi jing bian le, dan ye lai bu ji le" really lor..i guess i regretted...on sunday i went for service. it was about the purpose in life. i seriosuly duno what is my purpose in life maybe i not a christian so i dun understand what it means or maybe i am not mature enough to realise waht is my purpose in life, or maybe i know it jsut that i am not sure yet. or maybe i did not even realise waht is my real purpose.ngee ann girl was not a very good person after all. she sure is weird, despite breaking with zinc she still has feelings for him .. what the .. not just that. she ah lian? sisterhood somemore -.- unbelieveable yeh. and worst is the conversation with her, u probably can vomit blood. but i cannot dun admit she pretty la. but i guess she need to change the way she live and the way she see her life. bless her and zinc lorafter this week, fisherman village is going to be taken back by the govenment. by then i probably be jobless. i planned to bring my girlfriend? there to have a meal and enjoy the starlight in the sky and the romantic sea views..budden untill now i am still single. how pathetic =/ how i wish i could cry in my dreams.
2:26 AM
it continues to stain, why?.
