Monday, September 25, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
yesterday went to basketballing with the cousinsss, because i getting weaker than before. sick and also lack of stamina, so decide to play basketball end up sweat alot.you still say you coming, end up never. you rather enjoy your game than to break your promise? to you maybe i am not just dirt i am also "ITE", someone precious to you would be "JC" and you wished to be with him all the time and so you work hard hoping to go to "JC". your dreams, your future.. maybe prehaps "ITE" just dun suit your lifestyles, your everything. in terms of academic i already lose out, what more go out for career i am a much more failure to you compare to him. you grow up in a palace, i grew up in kampong? we just live differently. i doubt you understand how i live each day with suffering? maybe it the right choice to leave you, to hate you and to give up on you. actually i wont want to, but i guess i dun have a choice. i think i will never find true love again. past few days u were depressed, due to your previous beloved changed. maybe i am just busybody, but i just want to care for you. but you just have somebody elsess heart. your "JC" also intend to go to poly for the coming year, maybe if you didnt do very well, u could join him too. how sweet. =(everytime see couples sweetly together, how i wish i could be like them with my partner. but i just dun get the chance, or maybe never. people might say i am still young or whatever. but i think it needs time to love and to commit. understand why some couples break up? maybe they love but they dun commit. i just fear many things, how i wish someone can take away my fears. i may look like i am tough, but i am actually weak or infact weaker than everyone. who can be there for me when i really need that someone. dun just say, u must also do.
12:03 AM
it continues to stain, why?.
