I have lost the sun, So i will find the moon.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

we even lost sight of things we've seen before,

today morning was shit..i think i was being impolite? saw that ngee ann girl as usual..she did see me for awhile but not long..anyways she beautiful and really beautiful..and when going up to bus..she stand behind me..but i suppose to let her in first? something like lady first =X but i didnt..cause was to shy to like let her walk in first..but like so bold to just walk in like this -.-

1st lesson.. chinese was practising oral..ohmy with classmates....-.- was hard to read out..and those words are kinda hard..and they didnt even pay attention, while i dun want your attention too but at least let me read it peacefully so i wont be so worried for just a passage..was stressed la..headaches too
later english was going through comprehension answers..so was telling teachers almost all the answer she just keep saying u dun understand the passage...and also english is so damn difficult to score perfectly..and it really hard to satisfy everybody in any situation.. was into english remedial lessons -.-

physics was more even spoilt my mood.. taht teacher, expected la..
1st his late and he gave excuess
2nd he trying to be like so kind..but actually his not
3rd he is so fake -.-
4th...the list can go on..but i think it enough..
he said eh dun sleep leh...or dun talk..i duno what he say to me..i did nothing wrong lor..i rather fail physics..cause i had a strong feeling i wont do well for prelim as well as N levels..not the lack of confidence.. but i think i wont be able to make it?

social studies..was even more slack..-.- no comments..
went for that champion course last 2 periods..although i hate it alot..i force myself to at least sit down there anyways was talking to zijing throughout the talk..anyways i cant be bothered waht that guy was talking about, i more intrested about zijing recently life..we have not been contact or go out for long..ever since his attached..well attached seems to be good cause is like u are happy with someone..but he has his problem too..as well as jierui, enliang and others? i had not been going out for long..i wonder how is their life recently when compare to before is different..

was on bus, so there this couple they touch here touch there -.- is like not yet married? or should i say is he the right on or is she the right one..anyways was obsence =X
as bus travel..i saw this couple and 1 girl..so this guy was talking to this girl while holding hands with his girlfriend..but while talking to that girl..they getting closer and that girlfriend was like being left out? but still holding hands -.-

passing this N level is a must, but the chances or passing is low.. many people want me to go to sec 5 example..teachers? classmates like salihah, hazwany. friends like zoelyn, boonkhin? and other i guess...but there some look down on me -.- well i know my attitude shows but dun critisize me till like this -.-
well although i dun planned to come back, but i also wish to be there..so i wont get to miss all the pleasant things.. like you?

things happen in the future i may not know, but chances of being together is low although that is my wish..but i guess wish doesnt come true all the time...
there many things i can say..but will it happen? this entry can go on without stopping .. -.-
today was a sucking day..nothing comes right..
pray tomorrow would be better

3:23 PM
it continues to stain, why?.