without ngee ann girl sure without mood. worst still my sickness not yet totally recover, kinda suffering till now..i still suffered.
my dnt project was craps and in mess..dateline is 28 july, prelims coming too..worst still N levels my chinese oral is 24 july, i still having serious sore throat
i always thought the things i good at, i would be off great help..so i once helped her chemistry and helped him dnt..which suppose to be my best subject during secondary 3 but i screwed everything up, end up making her kinda not prepared for chemistry mid year exam and causing him scolded by teacher and discrimiate those works done by him and a little of my ideas..
maths teacher called my mother..saying i can do maths..but just no hope..well i guess i dun have to repeat why i said i cant..i know i didnt try ..but the fact is that i cant..if i would have success i would have done it earlier..and not now -.-
watching drama awhile ago.. love at zero degree..i know why it had that title as the show..because it true love is selfish.. love can cause all the trouble, and ruined everything.. yixin ignore that weixiang just because her friend xiaoling, plus the parents make a fool of them..and also the misunderstanding they had..cause the ignorance..i dun like this type of ending..they suppose to meet at a date..but end up..seperated..how sad can it be..
when i heard that song being played by you.. it really remind me about..what i learn from taht song which is loving u and not loving u is cannot be pretence..but so..a simple communcation "hi" i didnt hear it neither i say it.. well it really make me think it more impossible to be together..let alone relationships, there even have problems with friendship..
my friend had a problem with relationship..he has the same thinking as me, thinking cannot make it for N and so..he dun wish to make his girlfriend suffer..as for me i dun want it too..but i believe love can make 1 sacrifices but..he said something to make me awake and i agree too..who willing to suffer..plus he willing to see the girl that he love leave him..and married another guy -.- which i cant take it ..and i wont want to see it..and i cant imagine that picture if such thing happens seriously i wont want that to happen..am i selfish? say me selfish for all you want..but.. well it either i end up being begger or being some useless person earning 1000 or less each month..and may cost my future wife and kids to suffer with me..provided i have..but if i dun..i will be living alone in this lonely world -.-
