Tuesday, May 30, 2006
we even lost sight of things we've seen before,
wake up already afternoon~ am i so tired..have to reach school at 2..but actually what time also can as long as i can finish my dnt...but i have a strong feeling i might not finish it..online and talk to those online peoples...shuting said she want to debate my msn nick..which is "MY RESULTS MAY NOT EVEN GET ME A "N" CERT WHAT MORE A GOOD CAREER,A GOOD WIFE,A GOOD FAMILY, MY DREAM..." she say her ah gong also no cert...why he still can have a good wife a good family...then i say now de world has change...everything requires a cert...while in the end she lost the debating...it not the point of winning...but i learn something again..
now i think i really cannot make it for N levels, because when i predict something it usually come right...i predict i wont pass N levels when i was secondary 3..correct i fail my end of year..was actually stayed back? but my results was not that bad after all..had A1 for science A2 for dnt..
so i got an advanced..better than nothing..so since i go to secondary 4 no point..not study..infact i did try..common test was all rubbish english 19 marks chinese 16 marks..over a 100...midyear..my science...from last year de A1 drop to now C5...many people has climb to sit at my place already...erms i think i disappoint miss soh and miss ho? they taught me de mah...but sec 4 physics was that mr goh teach ...but he didnt taught me anything at all...i depend on waht i remember on sec 3 and i still can did better then my chemistry for the first time...cause miss ho dun want give me the 2 marks...just because i did it messy...if not my physics will never be better than chemistry...
anyways this is not the main point...if i really fails my N level..either people will laugh at me...i wont even get a girlfriend? waht more a wife...and that goes my dreams..
i told zoelyn 10 years down the road...u might saw me sitting down at orchard road becoming a begger...and i will saw u and jierui walking by me...hugging,holding hands...with intiamcy?
there nothing i can do..if i really fails my N level...i wont get a good job...at least 1 month $1000 after deducting CPF la...is impossible with that cert..then i will make my family? suffer...and my future wife?..i dun want them to suffer just because of me...and i dun want to be like my father...didnt take care of me when i was 6
anyways even without a cert...i wont even have a girlfriend let alone a wife...because it impossible...when i come out from NS i depend on her...she might runaway with another guy...nowadays girls a career-minded...which girl will stay with me and suffer...i tell u none..because they prefer luxury and they tends to enjoy themselves...plus no human would want to suffer...
i am late for dnt...
1:20 PM
it continues to stain, why?.
